no good news!!! :( ;(
well on Wednesday Justin broke up with me!!!! That was literally the worst day of my life!! It felt like the day from Hell!! But he still wants to be friends and i'm still not sure if i can handle that yet!! But i kinda had to last nite cuz we had a band concert!! i thought that things went well but i dunno! i still wanna talk to him about how all of this is gonna work out!! I'm still really leary about it!! I really miss what he and I had!! but i am truly glad that I did get to spend 4months and a week as his girlfriend!!! Justin is such a great guy and i hope that if he does ever make up his mnd about going back out with me that no matter what happens we will still be friends!!! I would really hate to lose him as a friend!!! but the bad part is that i wans him back!!! I would do nething to get back our relationship!!! But i think that i may be able to handle a friendship with him but its gonna take me some time to get over the fact that what we had os prolly gone and that he's just gonna be a friend! But thats not what i want but i guess i'll just have to deal with it!! everyone says that it is his loss not mine, but i feel like that on Wednesday i lost something!! what i lost.....i am unsure of but i know that i did lose something!!! I wish that i could turn back the clock and change his mind but i know that it will never happen so i gotta find a way to get over it!!
Justin, if ur reading this i only have a few things that you need to know!
1. i really miss what we had before!! I would do nething to get it back! I hope that you are really putting thought into what we talked about on the phone!! i miss you and i want you back at times but i know that only you can make that decision!
2. just give me time and i should be ok with us being friends!! it's gonna take me so time to realize that even tho u were a great boyfriend you'll be just as great a friend!!
and last but not least........................................................................................
3. I love you no matter what happens friends or together as a couple!! I truely do!!!
Thanks for everything!! i really appreciate it!!!!
well i'm gonna put one last thing!!!!
SHANNON,
I'm sorry for everything!!!! i tried to talk to you before but you weren't talking to me so i thouyght that i wouldn't pres matters, so i left you alone!!! I really wanna tal to you!! if you fell like it please give me another chance!!!
now, i'm gonna go!! Lata! God bless and peace!!!!