~* my decision *~
i've decided that i want no part in boys for right now. it's too much drama, too much confusion, too much dissapointment, all that crap. dont get me wrong, boys are wonderful. being involved with them definitely has it's good points, but i dont think im ready right now to deal with the bad points as well. im a really picky person. so when i like a guy enough to date him, that usually means that i can see him in my future...so when they dont make it to my future its a BUMMER. i feel like i wasted all that time preparing myself for someone who was only gonna stay around for like 2 seconds. for EXAMPLE *ahem* there "could be" a guy that is extremely insanely gorgeous, so sweet it kills me, smart, and perfect in every way for me.. but if he's confusing.. then he goes bye bye. i dont have time to sit around and try to read people, i need STRAIGHT forwardness. i've been thru 100 of those "one week bullshit" relationships and the "this is just for fun" relationships and im seriously SICK of them. im not looking for someone who is COMPLETELY serious about everything, just someone who is straight up about the way they're feeling and what they want - not someone who likes to play pretend cause i've been sick of that game since the 3rd grade. UGH anyway now that im done VENTING...
goodbye <3
goodbye <3