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I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT..i guess after getting my depression and cutting under control i have the ability to focus on this and to have the energy to carry through :) I'v been doing so well and i have no sign of turning back. Finally I am in control like I want to be, and I don't want to jump the gun or start getting all excited because knowing my luck I'll go right back to old ways but for now I have awesome control and am eating extremly little. Last night my mom was like have whatever for dinner so at like 4 I had a small salad and a bite of chicken in front of her and then dodged everything else and then later i was getting a lil cracing and tempted to eat so i asked me sister if she wanted to go outside and toss the lacrosse ball around and then came in and excercised and took a shower to avoid eating so I burned cals and avoided binging..yay..so I'm extremly happy.
Today though i can't work out until i get back from my therapy appt at 4..oh no just me and my mom in this one :X but this is all about depression and family stuff soo i'm not that worried nothing new. So I'm not eating*i had a nectarine this morning because my dad went to work late and we all had breakfast together*so 50cals or so total because i didn't eat the whole thing and it was small to begin with. So I'm avoiding food and doing lots of cleaning to burn as many cals as possible then at 3 i'll get ready leave at 3:30 then appt is 4-5 then whenever I get home I'll have whatever I have to for dinner if anything then workout and all that and shower and avoid temptation. Today's tuesday right? So Tomorrow will make a week of the heavy restricting so I'll try to get an accurate weight to see how much I'v dropped. I'm seeing my legs and stomach lean down and thin up because of the pilates moves and I love it!So I'm guessing I'll be 125ish meaning about 6/7lbs lost thats always one a day!I need to keep up my metabolism and energy so I'm gonna take these centrum vitamins..I'm doing this as healthy as I can even though its not what other people consider healthy.
I miss matt..GOSH I'M SO IN LOVE <3
Today though i can't work out until i get back from my therapy appt at 4..oh no just me and my mom in this one :X but this is all about depression and family stuff soo i'm not that worried nothing new. So I'm not eating*i had a nectarine this morning because my dad went to work late and we all had breakfast together*so 50cals or so total because i didn't eat the whole thing and it was small to begin with. So I'm avoiding food and doing lots of cleaning to burn as many cals as possible then at 3 i'll get ready leave at 3:30 then appt is 4-5 then whenever I get home I'll have whatever I have to for dinner if anything then workout and all that and shower and avoid temptation. Today's tuesday right? So Tomorrow will make a week of the heavy restricting so I'll try to get an accurate weight to see how much I'v dropped. I'm seeing my legs and stomach lean down and thin up because of the pilates moves and I love it!So I'm guessing I'll be 125ish meaning about 6/7lbs lost thats always one a day!I need to keep up my metabolism and energy so I'm gonna take these centrum vitamins..I'm doing this as healthy as I can even though its not what other people consider healthy.
I miss matt..GOSH I'M SO IN LOVE <3