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ok so havn't really updated all week..I get on and read my friends page but then get off. I'm now prolly at 126..ugh..I'm like at this odd point. Ok so from this moment on until sunday night I am not eating unless absolutly necessary. I want to kick off the week and then once monday comes and we leave for spring break I won't have a pantry of shit to snack on and binge. We'll be running around and stuff and traveling and if we have lunch somewhere and I skip it..then there's no chance of me binging if there's nothing to eat. SO I'm hoping I'll come back MUCH lighter. Let's hope I can do this..so I found some collages I did in outpatient and so I took a pic of them.. and I just decided to take some pics of me since I hadn't in awhile..not pretty or thinspiring at all but what the hell. So had a psych appt today so I went and we talked about everything. Next time I think I'm gonna mention a bit about the whole self stuff..cause i want to get help with it but I don't want the whole ed thing to come into play. I dunno it'd just be too much. My mom like force fed me lunch since I missed it at school..damnit a wawa wrap and diet vanilla coke..damnit I tried so hard to purge last night. I don't know what it is and I'v said this before but does anyone have any tips on purging..I used to be able to do it but now my reflexes just suck..anything I can eat/drink to help???Thanks for any advice..so I'm gonna print some poems and lyrics and pics out and stick em in my journal so over the trip I'll stay inspired..any suggestions for poems??I think I'v got enough pics saved by any lyrics quotes or poems would be awesome!!! I hope everyone's doing well and staying strong. 2 months til summer and pools..we can do this girls*and any guys* <3
