no one should ever feel the way that i feel now.
nobody will read this...
oh, what my life has become. a shattered resemblence of a 6th grader's daydream.
i must resist the temptation of weed. must.
i must join the navy, and find erika (the only true human being left on this planet, since everyone else is hiding something)
i must realize that being happy now means being unhappy in the near future.
that sucks, but these are the things that MUST BE ACCOMPLISHED.
at least i have a new girl. but she knows little of everything i've gone through. nina needs to understand, but i think she never will. she will be gone soon just like everything else.
nothing that makes me happy will last. it never has, and it never will.
so why can't i anticipate disaster??? shouldn't i be able to see now what will happen if i continue things this way??? am i retarded??
i'll never see or hear from amber again. ever. i won't even bother coming back from boot camp to palm coast. no point, but i think about it everyday. even though she hates me. i miss her and still love her. but she's with another guy. oh well. he probably deserves a girl like her. she definetely deserves a better guy than me... so, i guess as long as she's happy with him then.. i'm glad.
somehow i can't see things looking any better in the future for me. there's no use going on. it's going to end "to-motherfuckin-night". all i can say is i'm sorry if you didn't have the chance to speak up. goodbye all.
no one should ever feel the way that i feel now.
oh, what my life has become. a shattered resemblence of a 6th grader's daydream.
i must resist the temptation of weed. must.
i must join the navy, and find erika (the only true human being left on this planet, since everyone else is hiding something)
i must realize that being happy now means being unhappy in the near future.
that sucks, but these are the things that MUST BE ACCOMPLISHED.
at least i have a new girl. but she knows little of everything i've gone through. nina needs to understand, but i think she never will. she will be gone soon just like everything else.
nothing that makes me happy will last. it never has, and it never will.
so why can't i anticipate disaster??? shouldn't i be able to see now what will happen if i continue things this way??? am i retarded??
i'll never see or hear from amber again. ever. i won't even bother coming back from boot camp to palm coast. no point, but i think about it everyday. even though she hates me. i miss her and still love her. but she's with another guy. oh well. he probably deserves a girl like her. she definetely deserves a better guy than me... so, i guess as long as she's happy with him then.. i'm glad.
somehow i can't see things looking any better in the future for me. there's no use going on. it's going to end "to-motherfuckin-night". all i can say is i'm sorry if you didn't have the chance to speak up. goodbye all.
no one should ever feel the way that i feel now.