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college...
i was so afraid at first. there was a moment sitting outside of jennas room where i just wanted to cry because i was so afraid that i wouldnt be able to handle all of the responsibilites that college entails.and im not mature enough. or grown up enough. i dont know how to do anything on my own. i felt so lost. but that feeling is going away.
its going to be ok. i absolutely love everything about santa cruz. today i explored watsonville with jen, had a meeting with everyone in my building and i got to finally see all of them, we sat in a large circle of fellow smokers and listened while jessica played the guitar and we all sang....we went to slug fest and danced and got all gross and then drank (finalllllly), then we tried to find the mysterious drum circles that the hippies have at porter during the full moon....got lost in the forest with our new friends, came back....had some good times with two of the girls across the hall from me. im really happy here.
but with all of these doors opening it means that other doors are closing. but not forever, or permanently and probably for a shorter period than you think. i dont know how to call out of my room, so please call me. ohhh everyone should call me! (831)5020647 and since i wont have a cell phone for a while, i think you all should call. thank youuuu for everything. seriously i couldnt have done it without you and i know i wont be able to do it without you and your guidance and wisdom and caring nature and blah blah i love you so very much and i really do appreciate it all.
its so lonely in this little itty bitty single all by myself on the very top of the building, but i think it will grow on me.
i was so afraid at first. there was a moment sitting outside of jennas room where i just wanted to cry because i was so afraid that i wouldnt be able to handle all of the responsibilites that college entails.and im not mature enough. or grown up enough. i dont know how to do anything on my own. i felt so lost. but that feeling is going away.
its going to be ok. i absolutely love everything about santa cruz. today i explored watsonville with jen, had a meeting with everyone in my building and i got to finally see all of them, we sat in a large circle of fellow smokers and listened while jessica played the guitar and we all sang....we went to slug fest and danced and got all gross and then drank (finalllllly), then we tried to find the mysterious drum circles that the hippies have at porter during the full moon....got lost in the forest with our new friends, came back....had some good times with two of the girls across the hall from me. im really happy here.
but with all of these doors opening it means that other doors are closing. but not forever, or permanently and probably for a shorter period than you think. i dont know how to call out of my room, so please call me. ohhh everyone should call me! (831)5020647 and since i wont have a cell phone for a while, i think you all should call. thank youuuu for everything. seriously i couldnt have done it without you and i know i wont be able to do it without you and your guidance and wisdom and caring nature and blah blah i love you so very much and i really do appreciate it all.
its so lonely in this little itty bitty single all by myself on the very top of the building, but i think it will grow on me.