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heartbreak is real and flooding my household. it makes it miserable for me to be home. i'm not sure i can actually call my house a home anymore. andrew tries his best to make me happy, but i feel i am too selfish and importunate to appreciate it. he loves me, i should be greatful.
friday andrew and i went to steve's. i got high. he got drunk. i was quite annoyed. he was hammered when he drove me home. he decided we are going to stop drinking because it's unsafe and i always end up disappointed and angry with him. i am more of a babysitter sometimes rather than a girlfriend.
saturday was nice, we went to the movies on a double date with chris and christine and we saw employee of the month. it was a good movie. dane cook is a cutie.
today kind of blew. i waited two extra hours after work for andrew to get out and we went to dinner with david but then i had to be dropped off because andrew had plans with his sister. i was annoyed and dissapointed and i feel bad because i hate being that way over andrew.. i feel like i'm mean to him. i wouldn't say i love you back to him and it made me feel like shit. i did say it though. his response "i love you too.. i was hoping you would say that" it made me feel like shit and i started crying.
tomorrow morning he is taking me to breakfast for chocolate chip pancakes to make up for it. he is amazing, i don't know why i can't see that sometimes.
friday andrew and i went to steve's. i got high. he got drunk. i was quite annoyed. he was hammered when he drove me home. he decided we are going to stop drinking because it's unsafe and i always end up disappointed and angry with him. i am more of a babysitter sometimes rather than a girlfriend.
saturday was nice, we went to the movies on a double date with chris and christine and we saw employee of the month. it was a good movie. dane cook is a cutie.
today kind of blew. i waited two extra hours after work for andrew to get out and we went to dinner with david but then i had to be dropped off because andrew had plans with his sister. i was annoyed and dissapointed and i feel bad because i hate being that way over andrew.. i feel like i'm mean to him. i wouldn't say i love you back to him and it made me feel like shit. i did say it though. his response "i love you too.. i was hoping you would say that" it made me feel like shit and i started crying.
tomorrow morning he is taking me to breakfast for chocolate chip pancakes to make up for it. he is amazing, i don't know why i can't see that sometimes.