whats done, is done.
and it hurts to want everything, and nothing at the same time.
i want you but i'm not giving in this time..
hey, well i decided to update instead of doing other things. well this weekend was my first weekend free ! on friday jenny and alex came home with me and we just hung out, then i went to rehersal, and then kassy came back home with me and we hung out and laughed about the taco bell sauce packets. hehe gotta love her. then on saturday jenny woke me up, and i picked up stina and jen and we went to dadeland, i bought some little shirt there from PACSUN, then we went back to stina's, kinda trips me out everytime we hang out after not being together for a while.. so many changes, and memories, neways we went to nicky's and hung out ;D, then vane picked me and jen up and we went to this concert at st. john newman, we were super late tho, and i missed carter beats the devil, oh well i saw all the girls, and alot of random people like maria, max, ruby, larry, and some drama girls. it was cute <3 hehe.. so afterwards we went to alex's house, and just hung out, went to wendy's, and yea me and jenny got really tired.. ? strange.. went back to jennys later on and passed out. on sunday jenny came home with me when we woke up and i jus kept her company while she was working on a project. sunday night i talked to him, got very w/e when we hung up because i think too much. on monday we just reviewed in math, rehearsed in drama, and took a quest in history. preety slack, jenny came home with me again and we hung out, got kinda sad after talking to him, went to dance, and danced it off as always. tuesday in english we graded a test, and i just talked to caitie about everything, ran around acting crazy in drama, then finished a lab and learned in chem. after school, i got preety upset about a conversation there. i had to get a grip so i just forced myself to stop freaking out, its a very shitty situation. but i have to realize, i really have to just tell myself that whats done is done, and i cant change what has happened, and i might as well not dwell on things that are beyond my control. sometimes i just would like to know what i did wrong? its just hard to care about someone so much, and just have it thrown back in ur face.. neways.. i was memorizing lines until like 12, i was talking to ellie online for a while, then looked at old pictures and laughed hysterically with my sister, then talked to ian until about 3, he made me feel a little better about everything. sorry im so dramatic? lol.. couldnt sleep, so today i woke up late, felt rushed when i got to school, took a math test which i got a D on.. gah.. cant tell the parentals about that one.. w/e, then in drama we did a lines test, kinda blanked but i think i did okay, and history took notes all period. jen came home with me today again, and i layed down for about 2 hours, i talked to caitie for a while about everything.. and now im just here. this was kind of a long entry, tommorow is early release and i dont think im doing anything as of yet. i have dance photos on friday from 7:30- 9:30, other than that i dont know what the weekend plans are. alrite, thats about it. hanging in there until school is freakin over. cant wait. pz out