bite my tounge
[ well i've realized that everytime i talk to him for more than 5 minutes, i always end up thinking about everything too much. about what could have been, about what should have been, and about things that i thought i didnt care about at all. no matter how many times i tell myself i dont really care that much, and that im ok with just how we are now, the second i hear his voice or hear him say something that i dont expect him to say, i fall all over again. im just not ready to let go. and i hate the fact i cant change how i feel, but mostly i hate that i cant change how he feels. ]