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I wish I could explain my feelings better on paper or even with words, But I just cant seem to lately.
I wish sometimes.. I hadnt gotten myself mixed up in emotion again, after I'd become so comfortable, being independant, by myself. And now, I have to learn how to be with someone. And it's not too easy for me.
Plus, with the fact of Kyle. I know I sound like a broken record on that note,
and I can't explain what it is about him, But..
I shouldn't even think about it. I shouldnt let him get to me,
but.. I've connected with him, on a different level then anyone,
He's got the power to hurt me, more then anyone.
Reading old emails, Not a good idea, I should just go through and delete them all, so I won't dwell.
I wish I could say everything I feel, in beautiful poetic words, song quotes, and all round wise words,
But that's never been my style. I'm factual, It's not beautiful.. or touching. It's the flat out truth. God I'm bland.
My hair is going black tomorrow, I'm getting some sweaters to decorate tomorrow, It's going to be fun..
Dylan gets back on Sunday.
I'm really excited, and somewhat scared.
.. I need a cigarette.
I wish sometimes.. I hadnt gotten myself mixed up in emotion again, after I'd become so comfortable, being independant, by myself. And now, I have to learn how to be with someone. And it's not too easy for me.
Plus, with the fact of Kyle. I know I sound like a broken record on that note,
and I can't explain what it is about him, But..
I shouldn't even think about it. I shouldnt let him get to me,
but.. I've connected with him, on a different level then anyone,
He's got the power to hurt me, more then anyone.
Reading old emails, Not a good idea, I should just go through and delete them all, so I won't dwell.
I wish I could say everything I feel, in beautiful poetic words, song quotes, and all round wise words,
But that's never been my style. I'm factual, It's not beautiful.. or touching. It's the flat out truth. God I'm bland.
My hair is going black tomorrow, I'm getting some sweaters to decorate tomorrow, It's going to be fun..
Dylan gets back on Sunday.
I'm really excited, and somewhat scared.
.. I need a cigarette.