I am definately a total asshole
Ok, so heres the new scoop. I'm an asshole, end of story. I never thought the whole laugh thing would get to me this much. I just can't get it off my mind, no matter how much I try. Not to mention, she's everywhere. I just couldn't stop seeing her today. As soon as I arrived, I went to get my stuff and she was in the band room. I brought the stuff to my bus and she was out there. Then I went to get a hoodie from my cubby and she was in the band room when I got out. Then I got a snack and water and put it on my bus and she was there. I just can't get her out of my mind anymore. I was offered the chance to fix everything and forget it all and what do I do? I laugh at her and fuck everything up. I can't believe how ignorant I am sometimes. You guys have no clue how much this has gotten to me in the last 2 days. I now call myself the biggest asshole this world has ever known. I deserve the title "Ignorant Douschebag." That's just the end of it. I'm a total moron.
AJ
AJ