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as messy and mixed up as my life is right now, i feel for the first time in a long time that its all gonna be ok.

it varies day to day, but this week has been a good one.

i keep getting upset over stupid things that i need to let go, but im working on it.

i keep liking that one boy that is so so so wrong, but im working on it.

me and matt had a good night last night.

as he said, we could have ended it at many points throughout the evening and it would have been just as good.

we went to the park and sat for so long and just talked and talked.

hes the best to talk to.

im a lucky lady.

i dont know, i just feel like the future might not be as awful as i thought.

i still wish i could just go away for a while.

but the desire to stay and have my amazing apartment this summer with matt and jesse overpowers the desire to run away.

i picked out some paint samples for the kitchen last night.

i have the best boys ever, who else would let me paint our kitchen pink?

pipe club is friday, i have nothing prepared.

i need to start writting.

we're going to see rilo kiley for matts birthday.

im pretty stoked about that.

this is pretty random.

oh well.

later.

xoxo.