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ahhhhhh.
my dad is totally harassing me about what im doing for easter and its driving me nuts. i hate holidays.
anyways.
i dont really have much to say but i thought id update anyways.
im so sick of people lately.
i just want to hide in a room and listen to music.
too bad i dont have a room to hide in.
im so ready for june 1st.
i really need to have some sort of normal life again.
i just want to be able to go somewhere and close the door and listen to records and ignore everyone and not have to worry about anything.
i hung out with my family today.
that was ...fine.
i went to church with my mom and then went to breakfast with my sister while my mom did tons of my laundry.
i wish i could be 16 and living at home again.
it seems so easy there.
i really cant wait till its nice out.
this weather isnt helping my mood.
all i want in life is sunny days and bike rides.
and flip flops. and a discman with against me! in it.
thats not so much to ask for, is it?
i just want something to make me feel alive.
i feel so dead all the time.
getting up, standing outside forever, going to the same meaningless job.
day after day.
i miss summer.
and fall.
my summer and fall were so good this year.
something fun happened almost every night.
i really miss that.
i need some passion in my life!
also i kinda feel like the only person thats alone right now.
and it sucks.
but whatever.
ill just keep saying i dont want a boyfriend.
maybe some day ill truly convince myself.
whatever.
i dont really.
i just want someone to share stuff with.
and i know thats what friends are for.
but i dont know.
ajsfjasdfhsdaf.
endddddddddd.
<3.
my dad is totally harassing me about what im doing for easter and its driving me nuts. i hate holidays.
anyways.
i dont really have much to say but i thought id update anyways.
im so sick of people lately.
i just want to hide in a room and listen to music.
too bad i dont have a room to hide in.
im so ready for june 1st.
i really need to have some sort of normal life again.
i just want to be able to go somewhere and close the door and listen to records and ignore everyone and not have to worry about anything.
i hung out with my family today.
that was ...fine.
i went to church with my mom and then went to breakfast with my sister while my mom did tons of my laundry.
i wish i could be 16 and living at home again.
it seems so easy there.
i really cant wait till its nice out.
this weather isnt helping my mood.
all i want in life is sunny days and bike rides.
and flip flops. and a discman with against me! in it.
thats not so much to ask for, is it?
i just want something to make me feel alive.
i feel so dead all the time.
getting up, standing outside forever, going to the same meaningless job.
day after day.
i miss summer.
and fall.
my summer and fall were so good this year.
something fun happened almost every night.
i really miss that.
i need some passion in my life!
also i kinda feel like the only person thats alone right now.
and it sucks.
but whatever.
ill just keep saying i dont want a boyfriend.
maybe some day ill truly convince myself.
whatever.
i dont really.
i just want someone to share stuff with.
and i know thats what friends are for.
but i dont know.
ajsfjasdfhsdaf.
endddddddddd.
<3.