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To all who understand the meaning:
In the last few weeks i've been really dissapointed in a certain aspect of my life. last may i found a new group of people, who since then, have become another family to me. I loved it because it brought out a side of me that i don't normally show. These people were great. They were there for each other when something went wrong, they helped each other out when it was needed, and they celebrated when one had a success. I really felt like i was becoming a part of a new family when i joined up in may, and the feeling only grew.
But now since we've been apart for the winter, things have gone downhill. I find myself pointing fingers like everyone else, though i'm not sure why. these are the people that i've grown so close to in such a short time, and as soon as something goes awry, we all jump to accuse someone to blame. This really is pathetic, and i'm dissapointed in myself for it, and in everyone else that does it. we used to be so close. i was practically a newbie and even i felt like i was a major member. and now it's all gone to.... well i'm not sure. but the point is, how did this get to be so bad? what happened that could break up such a great thing, a thing that all of us love and spend every month waiting for? It's been almost 3 months since i've seen anyone, and i still have dreams at night about the game. i just don't understand how everyone went from supportive and helpful, to uncaring and hostile.
anyway, those are my thoughts for today.
In the last few weeks i've been really dissapointed in a certain aspect of my life. last may i found a new group of people, who since then, have become another family to me. I loved it because it brought out a side of me that i don't normally show. These people were great. They were there for each other when something went wrong, they helped each other out when it was needed, and they celebrated when one had a success. I really felt like i was becoming a part of a new family when i joined up in may, and the feeling only grew.
But now since we've been apart for the winter, things have gone downhill. I find myself pointing fingers like everyone else, though i'm not sure why. these are the people that i've grown so close to in such a short time, and as soon as something goes awry, we all jump to accuse someone to blame. This really is pathetic, and i'm dissapointed in myself for it, and in everyone else that does it. we used to be so close. i was practically a newbie and even i felt like i was a major member. and now it's all gone to.... well i'm not sure. but the point is, how did this get to be so bad? what happened that could break up such a great thing, a thing that all of us love and spend every month waiting for? It's been almost 3 months since i've seen anyone, and i still have dreams at night about the game. i just don't understand how everyone went from supportive and helpful, to uncaring and hostile.
anyway, those are my thoughts for today.