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Right now I hate everyone and everything. I am so angry I am not in New Jersey, because this "weekend" just keeps feeling worse inside. If I were in New Jersey, I'd be reminded that there is an atmosphere of substance, after all, and then I wouldn't be dying inside.
I became very weepy last night. And weepy this morning. And I cannot pin-point the weep reason. Yes, I am dissatisfied, discontent, don't have much to look forward to in the near future...but these factors are implied! I hate them, but I have been living them so long it's like...it must be something else!
I want to be able to go back upstairs and finish cleaning with exuberant dance moves. Problem is I certainly don't feel like dancing. Why can't I just feel like dancing?
I hate being this confused about myself. I need to get back in touch with...everything.
I became very weepy last night. And weepy this morning. And I cannot pin-point the weep reason. Yes, I am dissatisfied, discontent, don't have much to look forward to in the near future...but these factors are implied! I hate them, but I have been living them so long it's like...it must be something else!
I want to be able to go back upstairs and finish cleaning with exuberant dance moves. Problem is I certainly don't feel like dancing. Why can't I just feel like dancing?
I hate being this confused about myself. I need to get back in touch with...everything.