thoughts on love's mishaps.
Me: to be quite candid, sex is the last thing i need/want right now
Dan: are you dating?
Me: i wish
Dan: ...
Me: no one asks me out. i don't ask anyone out. i just kind of...exist. in my own little world
Dan: weirdo
Me: i don't really know how or why. that's just how it's been. since i graduated
Dan: too busy?
Me: not really. i mean, i always keep myself busy, but not busy to the point that i can't hang out
Me: i just don't have great opportunities to meet people
Me: i mean, if i go out at all, it's either to go for a walk or ride by myself or to a show...most likely one of my shows. and the audience is all high schoolers. some of the band guys are older...but they only see me as the promoter, not a potential date
Me: which is ironic, because i've received several marriage proposals at my shows, but they never follow up haha
Dan: lol.
Me: it's also tough because the kind of guy i'm attracted to (musician) i'm always around. i've become immune to their charms and unimpressed by their egos. i do unfortunately stereotype sometimes, but it's too easy. i crave more. much more. than what guys my age are probably willing to give
Dan: what do you crave?
Me: a true connection, basically. romance. friendship. simplicity with a hint of extravagance haha
Dan: sounds nice
Me: sounds impossible haha
Dan: why? i don't think so.
Me: i've always searched for perfection. in myself and in others.
Dan: are you dating?
Me: i wish
Dan: ...
Me: no one asks me out. i don't ask anyone out. i just kind of...exist. in my own little world
Dan: weirdo
Me: i don't really know how or why. that's just how it's been. since i graduated
Dan: too busy?
Me: not really. i mean, i always keep myself busy, but not busy to the point that i can't hang out
Me: i just don't have great opportunities to meet people
Me: i mean, if i go out at all, it's either to go for a walk or ride by myself or to a show...most likely one of my shows. and the audience is all high schoolers. some of the band guys are older...but they only see me as the promoter, not a potential date
Me: which is ironic, because i've received several marriage proposals at my shows, but they never follow up haha
Dan: lol.
Me: it's also tough because the kind of guy i'm attracted to (musician) i'm always around. i've become immune to their charms and unimpressed by their egos. i do unfortunately stereotype sometimes, but it's too easy. i crave more. much more. than what guys my age are probably willing to give
Dan: what do you crave?
Me: a true connection, basically. romance. friendship. simplicity with a hint of extravagance haha
Dan: sounds nice
Me: sounds impossible haha
Dan: why? i don't think so.
Me: i've always searched for perfection. in myself and in others.