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today was the first day back from thanksgiving break. more like hell. i hated today. as soon as i got into child development, i knew that my day was going to suck balls. it was sooooo stressful. we had to change our lesson plan and rush to get it done and copied so we could effing go over it. then the teacher was getting on our ass about how we didn't try one of the activities yet. its a fucking box that you put a weight in.. you put it at the edge of a table so it looks as if it's floating. siiiimple! anyway. so after that, i went into PPD. mr. vanino has this way about him.. i can't stand it. he never thinks before he opens his mouth. he really pissed me off today and made me feel worthless plus, there is other things. i came home and called liz up and cried. end of story. about break.. eh.. it was good then it got lame. i forget what night it was but, some night i hung out with kels, liz, sarah j. and aub. we went to riviara's and saw bryan and gunther. then we left after awhile and went to zach's house to see naaaate. i missed/miss that kid. i only got to talk to him for 20 minutes cause he left before we got there and when he was on his way back, he got into an accident. so we left. haha and later i tried something that i thought would work ah haha, and it didn't? bryan snuck over- i thought i could pull it off again. my mom came down stairs around 1:30 and started saying it smelled like cologne and smoke and whatnot and no one was even smoking but bryan sprayed a ton of cologne on before he came over so, we got caught. but my mom was totally cool about it which was surprising and she doesn't hate him or anything. maybe it's cause i told her the reason he came over was because he got into a fight with his rents? i had to think of something. anyway- it worked. theeeen, the next night i hung out with kels, yet again and liz, brandon and sam. kels hit a deer on the way to my house or, she "knicked it" haha. so we went back to brandons to switch cars cause kels didn't feel like driving and we were then going to brandon's friends house, brandon. yes, 2 brandons. so brandon said to follow him and we'd be going to this party. we were in the car for i'd say atleast a half an hour but it really felt like 43924832984329000 hours. kels, liz and i are in the backseat and kels is falling asleep and liz and i are looking out the window and we see a sign.. we get a little closer.. it says "welcome to hamburg." haha liz and i just looked at eachother. so we get to this appartment building and it turns out that this kid lives all the way up at the effing top. it must of been 30 feet in the air and there was a flight of stairs we had to climb to get to it that were as wide as me and it was wet and rainy. we get in there.. theres mad people everywhere. and we don't know anyone haha and we were completely out of place. this guy had a fucking tumor on his neck. ah hahaha, oh jees. and the cat- it looked like they starved it. it was horrible. kels, liz and i just sat there and kept looking at eachother and busting up. later, i was going to go to some party with bryan but i ended up not going. yeaaaah.. all i can say and want to say is i love it how you act like you want to see me so bad one minute and then the next it's as if i don't exist. it's like you're two different people and you let things go without an explanation while i'm left wondering. so there, i said it and if you want to talk, call. i don't care. and to tell you the truth, i'm tired of talking about it already so onto sunday. haha i went to paiges and we went to the mall. she wanted to dye her hair so i said i'd do it for her and i wanted to do mine so i ended up dying mine as well. its this blackish/brownish color with a red tint to it. i like it, its different. i helped her gauge her ears as well. we took a lot of pictures, i have to put them on here. theres a lot. i don't know when i'll get around to that.

this entry is long.

eh.. i'll update again later tonight.
i have a feeling i will.

<3, me.