2004 Meme
Neh. I've had such a crappy day. Mom put us all under house arrest. Seriously. We couldn't ride in a car with anyone but her and dad (not that they would take us anywhere) and we couldn't walk anywhere either. She even took away Chris's truck keys. I know she's trying to be protective, but it's really agitating and frustrating that a whole freaking day just went to waste. I didn't enjoy today at all. And I'm really upset. Stupid PMS. I feel like crying.
It's like the older I get, rather than Mom giving me more freedom, she's pulling in the reigns tighter and tighter. It's so frustrating. I understand.. sort of.. I mean, I'm going to college in three years.. she's afraid she's never going to see me and stuff.. (and she's premenopausal/life crisis) But it's really beginning to make me resent everything about her.. and I don't want to.. it's so hard to be obedient towards my parents.. and when I am, they think I'm using like reverse physcology on them or something. Well, really it's just my mom. I totally love my dad to death. Not that I don't my mom.. but she's just.. so.. everything with my relationship with her is stressing and agitating. And she can't tell us to do anything with out like yelling at us. She yells so much. I don't understand. It makes me so unhappy all the time. She tells us to do something, and I would be fine absolutely doing it, but it's like she doesn't expect us to do it, so she has to say it like she's offended or something. I don't know. I just feel completely tied down by her.. I just want more freedom.. I'm responsible.. and I mean.. I don't want to hurt my family's feelings or anything.. but I really don't enjoy spending time with them.. and this is most of the time. but I'm forced to be home like all the time because my Mom freaks out if I'm not home like 40 hours a week. Seriously. I'm almost 16.. I don't need her watching my every move, I can handle and take care of myself. I know when to rest and when I'm fine, but it's like because she's so tired and stressed out all the time and needs to sleep, she thinks I do too. I'm so frustrated. I don't understand my mom at all. I can't talk to her either because it's like I resent spending any amount of time in her presence. I just want to get away. I hate being home. I hate having to argue all the time, I hate being condescended to. I just hate it all. Why does my family have to be so broken? Why can't we just be normal?
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Cabin fever sucks. I'm so agitated and frustrated and according to my mom, I'm "pouting"
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1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? Got serious about my relationship with God, was around kids quite a bit.. got a job.. a car..
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I can't remember that far, and the only one I made was to be healthier.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope.
4. Did anyone close to you die? Kent Stevens (Bobo's dad) died, but I didn't actually know him well.
5. What countries did you visit? Stayed here in the USA.
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? I wouldn't actually have it.
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? February 12th, 2004, the day I gave my life over to God. It's never been the same since.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I have no idea.. hm.. I got a 25 on the ACT, not bad for a sophomore.
9. What was your biggest failure? *shrugs*
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Ear infection.. cold/flu, not a whole lot, actually.
11. What was the best thing you bought? Christmas presents?
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? Dunno.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? No one's made me either.. I would suppose.
14. Where did most of your money go? Summer Camp, concert, Christmas presents, buying a few things for myself.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? God.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004? I can't think of one.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder? happier, by a lot. I'm so much more content with what I have and stuff. I was like depressed last year.
II. thinner or fatter? More muscle.. but still fatter. blech.
III. richer or poorer? richer in all aspects.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Reading.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Argueing and fighting with my parents.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? Already had it. At home, with family, then played games at Drew's house.
21. [like last year, there is no question 21] All right.
22. Did you fall in love in 2004? With God.
23. How many one-night stands? One-night stands are ludicrous. Honestly.
24. What was your favourite TV program? I have no idea.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I don't hate anyone.
26. What was the best book you read? Anything in the NT. 27. What was your greatest musical discovery? I am musically untalented.
28. What did you want and get? I dunno.
29. What did you want and not get? I really wouldn't receive it, so it doesn't matter.
30. What was your favourite film of this year? Shrek 2
31. What did you do on your birthday? Nothing. Everyone was in Tennesee.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Dunno.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? Jeans and a sweatshirt/tshirt.
34. What kept you sane? A lot of things.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Celebrities are overrated and nothing more than people. Stop worshipping them.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? We're doing capital punishment in debate right now.. probably that.
37. Who did do you miss? I miss some of the friends I used to have.. they've fallen away completely from how I used to know them.. it's scary.
38. Who was the best new person you met? Well, I met Aggie, found friendship in Boon, rekindled friendship in Amanda, and have found lots other people.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you earned in 2004: Life is short. You won't live forever. Not everyone goes to Heaven, as sad as that is. Make your choice of eternity now - before it's too late. Do you want smoking or non-smoking?
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "All things new"