alot has changed.
life changes so quickly sometimes,or maybe it just seems that way.the last time i wrote on here was in 05,i was suicidal,depressed,an honestly thinking of ending it all.flash foward five years (holy crap has it been that long?)an im definitely a different person.I've dealt with a drug addiction an almost went to rehab,i've been hospitalized,put on meds,been taken off them,dropped out of highschool,went back,gotten engaged,found out he was a jerk an left,been thru quite a few crappy relationships,lost my dad(09),lost my mind for a while. but im finnaly at a (relatively)stable point in my life.currently not on meds,but dealing with life the best i can.i miss my dad more then i could ever say,but i've gotten closer to my mom an sisters,an realized that there ARE people who will help me if given the chance.i've been dating an amazing guy for four months (i've known him since i was 15..funny how that turns out right?)and im just living my life.
i guess this is where i go into a little more detail about my self right?
I'm Samantha.im 20 years old(be 21 in june)
I lost my dad to cancer last year,three days before my twenth birthday.and everything i do now is to make him proud of me an how far i've come.he's truly my inspiration,because he was a fighter til the very end,an never lost his sense of humor,no matter how bad things got.
Hoping to start college soon,because it's my dream in life to be a kindergarten teacher.
I'm a aunt to two amazing little girls,Emily an Sara.and an 'honorary aunt' to another,equally amazing girl, London.those three baby girls mean the world to me.i wouldn't hesitate to murder anyone who messed with any of those girls.i fiercly overprotective of my beautiful babies.they are all insanely smart,an i have a feeling those three are gonna grow up to change the world :D
i still fight tooth an nail with my sisters an my mom,but i've realized that at the end of the day,there isnt ANYTHING i wouldn't do for them.seriously,family are the ones that have to love you even when no one else does,even when you're not very loveable.
I'm dating a guy who is probably the most amazing male on the face of the earth.i've knowh im since i was fifteen.and honestly?i've been in love with almost as long.it just took me way too long to realize it.we drifted apart after i left highschool,an it was sort of a freak accident(and a toe biting beach crab)that got us to were we are (thank you dani!..funny story about that)we talk about marriage,an starting a family of our own one day,but we're not in any rush.(That's me an him in my icon picture)
so yea.this is me
i guess this is where i go into a little more detail about my self right?
I'm Samantha.im 20 years old(be 21 in june)
I lost my dad to cancer last year,three days before my twenth birthday.and everything i do now is to make him proud of me an how far i've come.he's truly my inspiration,because he was a fighter til the very end,an never lost his sense of humor,no matter how bad things got.
Hoping to start college soon,because it's my dream in life to be a kindergarten teacher.
I'm a aunt to two amazing little girls,Emily an Sara.and an 'honorary aunt' to another,equally amazing girl, London.those three baby girls mean the world to me.i wouldn't hesitate to murder anyone who messed with any of those girls.i fiercly overprotective of my beautiful babies.they are all insanely smart,an i have a feeling those three are gonna grow up to change the world :D
i still fight tooth an nail with my sisters an my mom,but i've realized that at the end of the day,there isnt ANYTHING i wouldn't do for them.seriously,family are the ones that have to love you even when no one else does,even when you're not very loveable.
I'm dating a guy who is probably the most amazing male on the face of the earth.i've knowh im since i was fifteen.and honestly?i've been in love with almost as long.it just took me way too long to realize it.we drifted apart after i left highschool,an it was sort of a freak accident(and a toe biting beach crab)that got us to were we are (thank you dani!..funny story about that)we talk about marriage,an starting a family of our own one day,but we're not in any rush.(That's me an him in my icon picture)
so yea.this is me