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lately i've been becoming more and more terrified of everything in the future. i'm scared of my meet against mohawk tomorrow. i'm scared of not being able to run. i'm scared of being able to run but doing horribly. i'm scared of how bad the rest of the season could be. i'm scared of sat's and acts and ap exams. i'm scared to finish this year. i'm scared of my friends graduating.
i am absolutely terrified of all my friends leaving at the end of the summer. i'm scared of not being with pj next year. even more, i'm scared of being with him when he goes to college and trying to make it work. i'm scared of screwing it up. i'm scared of him screwing it up. i'm scared of screwing it up before he even leaves. i'm scared of being in a long term relationship. i'm scared of things both of us will miss out on by being in one. i'm scared of what both of us will miss out on by not being in one.
i'm scared of making it next year without so many of my friends. i'm scared of next year being my last xc and track seasons. i'm scared of messing up college. i'm scared to choose the right college. i'm scared that i won't know what the right decision is.
i'm scared of when i go to college. i'm scared of completely losing touch with my friends. i'm scared that college won't be all that i need it to be. i'm scared of not doing any more sports. i'm scared i'll get stuck in western mass. i'm scared i won't be able to handle anything outside of western mass. i'm scared i'll miss it here.
i'm scared of what i'll do after college. i'm scared i won't end up in the right job, or with the right person. i'm scared of all the decisions i'll have to make.
i'm scared of everything i'll miss out on with every decision i make.
i am absolutely terrified of all my friends leaving at the end of the summer. i'm scared of not being with pj next year. even more, i'm scared of being with him when he goes to college and trying to make it work. i'm scared of screwing it up. i'm scared of him screwing it up. i'm scared of screwing it up before he even leaves. i'm scared of being in a long term relationship. i'm scared of things both of us will miss out on by being in one. i'm scared of what both of us will miss out on by not being in one.
i'm scared of making it next year without so many of my friends. i'm scared of next year being my last xc and track seasons. i'm scared of messing up college. i'm scared to choose the right college. i'm scared that i won't know what the right decision is.
i'm scared of when i go to college. i'm scared of completely losing touch with my friends. i'm scared that college won't be all that i need it to be. i'm scared of not doing any more sports. i'm scared i'll get stuck in western mass. i'm scared i won't be able to handle anything outside of western mass. i'm scared i'll miss it here.
i'm scared of what i'll do after college. i'm scared i won't end up in the right job, or with the right person. i'm scared of all the decisions i'll have to make.
i'm scared of everything i'll miss out on with every decision i make.