Theme #40
Title: In Exchange For Blood
Theme: [#40] i can hear the beating of your heart for 30_Breathtakes
Fandom: xxxHolic
Pairing: Doumeki/Watanuki (104)
Rating: PG
Warning: SPOILERS from chapters 116-119. Shounen ai and blood, I guess. Be warned.
Disclaimer: Not mine, xxxHolic belongs to CLAMP.
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Doumeki’s POV
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The coppery smell of blood overwhelms me as I move you from the broken glass. A harsh cough and then a shallow intake of breath, but as I watch I don’t see you breathe out again. It takes too long for the next breath and I worry that your lungs have given way. But even as I lean in, my ear pressed against your chest you take another shaky breath, unconscious to the world of pain. And I hear your slow sluggish heart beat, worried it will stop before anything can be done and I see your blood - your life - leaking away as your heart dutifully circulates the remaining blood out of you. Your heart cannot stop, but I have to find some way to stop your bleeding and losing anymore will endanger your life to the point where I can no longer reach you. I have already done all I need to do and no longer know what I can do to stop you from slipping away.
I…. I should never have left you alone….
Yuuko appears as soon as I reach her place, paler than I have ever seen her, yet still composed as she takes in your condition.
She asks me if I’m willing to pay any price, and I agree instantly without thinking, anxious to save you before your condition worsens. I offer my blood in place of the blood you have lost, and she nods and as I carry you in, I feel you grow colder and I hold you closer, hoping that my presence will anger you and you will wake up to yell at me, anything to keep you here.
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With the amount of blood I had transfused, the shock slowly settles in and I sag in relief when Yuuko assures me that you will be fine. I have to make sure for myself, but Yuuko refuses to let me in, saying that you have to see someone else first. My head swims as I slowly drop down to the floor in front of your room, waiting for you to wake up. But just knowing that you will survive this, exhaustion and shock persuade me to doze off for a while and the next time I wake up, I hear you talking with Kunogi.
When she walks out, she makes me promise to keep it a secret between the two of you about her situation and I glance up at her and say that I would, and that having a bento would better if the three of us are together.
She understands the thought I do not voice out and smiles gratefully at me as she leaves the shop.
Knowing that you are now back in the living with us, I relax and close my eyes again to regain my strength, my thoughts and emotions surprisingly calm as I think back to how close I was to losing you.
If I had lost you, there would no longer be anyone to yell at me when I got too detached from the world.
If I had lost you, I would no longer have anyone to make me bento.
If I had lost you, I would no longer have anyone to tease that could get annoyed as easily as you do.
If I had lost you, I… would no longer have anyone to protect.
And that…… that was the scariest thing of all.
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Er. Some Doumeki angst I guess? It’s kinda hard for me to write Doumeki since you don’t really find out about him too much. If it’s OOC I apologize.
I really should change to 3rd person pov soon. At least writing from Watanuki and Doumeki’s povs killed off those two bunnies that were trying to procreate.
It’s a war against the bunnies I say.
Anyways please leave a comment so I know what to improve on?
Theme: [#40] i can hear the beating of your heart for 30_Breathtakes
Fandom: xxxHolic
Pairing: Doumeki/Watanuki (104)
Rating: PG
Warning: SPOILERS from chapters 116-119. Shounen ai and blood, I guess. Be warned.
Disclaimer: Not mine, xxxHolic belongs to CLAMP.
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Doumeki’s POV
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The coppery smell of blood overwhelms me as I move you from the broken glass. A harsh cough and then a shallow intake of breath, but as I watch I don’t see you breathe out again. It takes too long for the next breath and I worry that your lungs have given way. But even as I lean in, my ear pressed against your chest you take another shaky breath, unconscious to the world of pain. And I hear your slow sluggish heart beat, worried it will stop before anything can be done and I see your blood - your life - leaking away as your heart dutifully circulates the remaining blood out of you. Your heart cannot stop, but I have to find some way to stop your bleeding and losing anymore will endanger your life to the point where I can no longer reach you. I have already done all I need to do and no longer know what I can do to stop you from slipping away.
I…. I should never have left you alone….
Yuuko appears as soon as I reach her place, paler than I have ever seen her, yet still composed as she takes in your condition.
She asks me if I’m willing to pay any price, and I agree instantly without thinking, anxious to save you before your condition worsens. I offer my blood in place of the blood you have lost, and she nods and as I carry you in, I feel you grow colder and I hold you closer, hoping that my presence will anger you and you will wake up to yell at me, anything to keep you here.
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With the amount of blood I had transfused, the shock slowly settles in and I sag in relief when Yuuko assures me that you will be fine. I have to make sure for myself, but Yuuko refuses to let me in, saying that you have to see someone else first. My head swims as I slowly drop down to the floor in front of your room, waiting for you to wake up. But just knowing that you will survive this, exhaustion and shock persuade me to doze off for a while and the next time I wake up, I hear you talking with Kunogi.
When she walks out, she makes me promise to keep it a secret between the two of you about her situation and I glance up at her and say that I would, and that having a bento would better if the three of us are together.
She understands the thought I do not voice out and smiles gratefully at me as she leaves the shop.
Knowing that you are now back in the living with us, I relax and close my eyes again to regain my strength, my thoughts and emotions surprisingly calm as I think back to how close I was to losing you.
If I had lost you, there would no longer be anyone to yell at me when I got too detached from the world.
If I had lost you, I would no longer have anyone to make me bento.
If I had lost you, I would no longer have anyone to tease that could get annoyed as easily as you do.
If I had lost you, I… would no longer have anyone to protect.
And that…… that was the scariest thing of all.
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Er. Some Doumeki angst I guess? It’s kinda hard for me to write Doumeki since you don’t really find out about him too much. If it’s OOC I apologize.
I really should change to 3rd person pov soon. At least writing from Watanuki and Doumeki’s povs killed off those two bunnies that were trying to procreate.
It’s a war against the bunnies I say.
Anyways please leave a comment so I know what to improve on?