who i am hates who i've been
so it's now October. an excellent month, i must say.
the passing of a month sometimes makes me pause and reflect; what has this semester been so far?
the first few weeks involved trying to get my grades and credits transfered from Bath to PSU. What a huge headache. but it all works out in the end. i got loads of credits, more than i expected. then a visit to my advisor revealed that i had finished all my requirements to graduate except my internship. so i dropped a class, going from 18 to 15 credits this semester. now i have more time to exercise.
i was getting into fitness classes like whoa when i developed stupid shin splints. so i'm on a hiatus from calorie killer, step, kickboxing, and full body. so i swim every wednesday and friday with the lovely lauren miller. and i try to do cardio every other day. i went on a few runs and i was the happiest kid alive, but my shins stopped that cold.
i like living in an apartment, a lot. multiple rooms are wonderful.
Ruben came back from Belgium to visit. went home couple weekends ago to surprise the fam. got to see the awesome tank kopriva. jen brought up the boyfriend jimbo and boob for lunch last weekend and stole my wallet.
hung out with allyson and mccaff this weekend.
spent a lot of time in the apron house. i've had some visitors this season.
but most of my energy has gone into some personal struggles i'm dealing with right now. at a time when we are supposed to be perched at the top, ready to jump off and soar into adulthood, i'm back in a corner huddled in a ball. it's so frustrating when you're stuck in the middle of knowing what you need to do but stuck in your old ways. some say change is inevitable, but i've never had to work harder for it. my past philosophy was that a change in environments would make the problem go away, but now i know i'm wrong - the problem follows me every where, even across the ocean and back. i have made small strides, but they remain under the surface. i am the furthest from God i've ever been, at at time when i need to be the closest.
who i am hates who i've been
the passing of a month sometimes makes me pause and reflect; what has this semester been so far?
the first few weeks involved trying to get my grades and credits transfered from Bath to PSU. What a huge headache. but it all works out in the end. i got loads of credits, more than i expected. then a visit to my advisor revealed that i had finished all my requirements to graduate except my internship. so i dropped a class, going from 18 to 15 credits this semester. now i have more time to exercise.
i was getting into fitness classes like whoa when i developed stupid shin splints. so i'm on a hiatus from calorie killer, step, kickboxing, and full body. so i swim every wednesday and friday with the lovely lauren miller. and i try to do cardio every other day. i went on a few runs and i was the happiest kid alive, but my shins stopped that cold.
i like living in an apartment, a lot. multiple rooms are wonderful.
Ruben came back from Belgium to visit. went home couple weekends ago to surprise the fam. got to see the awesome tank kopriva. jen brought up the boyfriend jimbo and boob for lunch last weekend and stole my wallet.
hung out with allyson and mccaff this weekend.
spent a lot of time in the apron house. i've had some visitors this season.
but most of my energy has gone into some personal struggles i'm dealing with right now. at a time when we are supposed to be perched at the top, ready to jump off and soar into adulthood, i'm back in a corner huddled in a ball. it's so frustrating when you're stuck in the middle of knowing what you need to do but stuck in your old ways. some say change is inevitable, but i've never had to work harder for it. my past philosophy was that a change in environments would make the problem go away, but now i know i'm wrong - the problem follows me every where, even across the ocean and back. i have made small strides, but they remain under the surface. i am the furthest from God i've ever been, at at time when i need to be the closest.
who i am hates who i've been