"I can't get myself to go away, oh God I shouldn't feel this way"
I think my self has shut down. I'm just going through the motions....Ever since I lost my temper last night. I'm disappointed in myself and frustrated.
Natalies mom told me I'm too controlling (when I didn't think I was, I was trying to get Natalie to be more assertive with telemarketers but she gave in), Natalie's doctor will probably tell her not to date me, and our relationship isn't like Ann and Rachels-which is how Natalie would like it to be.
I didn't fall asleep till 2am last night and got up at 6:45. I don't do well without my 7-8 hours of sleep. Natalie was out cold so I just layed there thinking and crying. Then I slept on the floor.
I don't want to go to work!! It's only for 4hrs 15 mins but lately it just drags on....
Natalies mom told me I'm too controlling (when I didn't think I was, I was trying to get Natalie to be more assertive with telemarketers but she gave in), Natalie's doctor will probably tell her not to date me, and our relationship isn't like Ann and Rachels-which is how Natalie would like it to be.
I didn't fall asleep till 2am last night and got up at 6:45. I don't do well without my 7-8 hours of sleep. Natalie was out cold so I just layed there thinking and crying. Then I slept on the floor.
I don't want to go to work!! It's only for 4hrs 15 mins but lately it just drags on....