sleeeeepy....
So here I am on campus. I am so freaking tired, I don't even have words. I have trained myself into a wicked case of insomnia this past month and now my body hates me. It took me like 2 hours to fall asleep last night. Sometime around 5am I was lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, trying not to cry. Kinda dozed on and off until 7:30 when my alarm went off and could tell as soon as I shut it off that my body was finally ready for some proper deep sleep.... except instead I made myself get up at 8:30. Hoping that the resulting exhaustion will mean that I get in bed and actually fall asleep like a normal person tonight. Unfortunately, I know that I will just suddenly feel wide awake at about midnight and the whole cycle will repeat. Argh.
Anyway, this afternoon I officially will be doing something in my new lab. It might just be sitting at a desk and reading, but that is a start. I didn't do nearly as much reading this month as I should have (I *DO*, however, have an extensive knowledge of the entire catalog of James McAvoy filmography. #priorities #theyarewrong) but I am also leaving this weekend for a week of family vacation, so I think I will just do my catching up then. I assume I need to have some sort of thesis proposal done by the end of August. Who knows.
One of my high school friends got married this past weekend. Pretty much everyone I know who attended also brought a date. FOREVER ALONE. It was really a beautiful ceremony and a lot of fun, but it really only reminded me that I suck at meeting new people and therefore hold very little hope of having my own wedding someday. (PLEASE PROVE ME WRONG, UNIVERSE).
Anyway, I am hungry. So I shall go seek food (I really need to find a way to bring lunch with me, despite the long trip. It's either that or not eating lunch ever) and then see if my advisor is around to at least let me into the lab.
PS - I have plans for a James picspam soon. You have been warned. I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS.
PPS - By ENTIRE catalog, I literally mean everything. Well except Early Doors. And The Pool. GUYS, BOLLYWOOD QUEEN WAS SUCH A CRAP MOVIE AND SOMEHOW I HAVE WATCHED IT TWICE.
Anyway, this afternoon I officially will be doing something in my new lab. It might just be sitting at a desk and reading, but that is a start. I didn't do nearly as much reading this month as I should have (I *DO*, however, have an extensive knowledge of the entire catalog of James McAvoy filmography. #priorities #theyarewrong) but I am also leaving this weekend for a week of family vacation, so I think I will just do my catching up then. I assume I need to have some sort of thesis proposal done by the end of August. Who knows.
One of my high school friends got married this past weekend. Pretty much everyone I know who attended also brought a date. FOREVER ALONE. It was really a beautiful ceremony and a lot of fun, but it really only reminded me that I suck at meeting new people and therefore hold very little hope of having my own wedding someday. (PLEASE PROVE ME WRONG, UNIVERSE).
Anyway, I am hungry. So I shall go seek food (I really need to find a way to bring lunch with me, despite the long trip. It's either that or not eating lunch ever) and then see if my advisor is around to at least let me into the lab.
PS - I have plans for a James picspam soon. You have been warned. I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS.
PPS - By ENTIRE catalog, I literally mean everything. Well except Early Doors. And The Pool. GUYS, BOLLYWOOD QUEEN WAS SUCH A CRAP MOVIE AND SOMEHOW I HAVE WATCHED IT TWICE.