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i guess the word that comes to mind is 'depressed'. im not even going to talk about it. so much shit happens and im thankful i dont hardly ever sleep...more time to think. there is so much i want, no, need to say...i just cant find the way to write them down...a way to put sound to them...a way to express what im feeling. why i feel this way i dont know. its rather confussing actually. the story tony's got in his head is way different from what happened, and being who i am, im going to let him think whatever he wants about that night. i have no intentions of telling him what went on because i know hes only going to think otherwise. key points: -nothing happened with other guys -i was not drunk to the point of not being able to walk -yes i only got 30 minuets of sleep (not unusual, i normally dont sleep during the summer) -cherry's pissy at tony -my parents are being way annoying -i listen to music way too loud -i read too much -im loosing my trian of thought as i go -and im tired of explaining!! GAH!! where's the love when ya need it? eh, nothing a little song wont make better. sure its confusing, but thats because its a Japanese translation. so excuse me if it sounds funny... im not an expert translater.
somewhere, a voice calls,
in the depths of my heart
may i always be dreaming,
the dreams that move my heart.
so many tears, of sadness,
uncountable through and through
i know on the other side of them,
I'll find you.
everytime we fall down to the ground,
we look up to see the blue sky above
we wake to its blueness, as for
the first time.
though the raod is long and lonely and
the end is far away, out of sight
i can with these two arms,
embrace the light.
as i bid farewell, my heart stops,
in tenderness i feel
my silent empty body begins to listen to
what is real.
the wonder of living,
the wonder of dying
the wind, town and flowers,
we all dance one unity.
somewhere, a voice calls,
in the depths of my heart
keep dreaming your dreams,
dont ever let them part.
why speek of all your sadness
or of life's painful woes
instead let the same lips sing
a gentle song for you.
the whispering voice, we never want to forget,
in each passing memory
always there to guide you.
when a mirror has been brocken,
shattered peiced scattered on the ground
glimps of new life,
reflected all around.
window of beginning, stillness
new light of the dawn
let my silent empty body
be filled and reborn.
no need to search outside,
nor sail acorss the sea
cause here shinning inside me,
its right here inside me
i've found a brightness,
its always with me.
i dont care really why you think i picked this song, but i know and thats all that matters. im not explaining anything to anyone (well maybe someone)... so dont even ask. the song should be pretty explanitory as to how and why i feel about different things. have fun trying to figure me out.
somewhere, a voice calls,
in the depths of my heart
may i always be dreaming,
the dreams that move my heart.
so many tears, of sadness,
uncountable through and through
i know on the other side of them,
I'll find you.
everytime we fall down to the ground,
we look up to see the blue sky above
we wake to its blueness, as for
the first time.
though the raod is long and lonely and
the end is far away, out of sight
i can with these two arms,
embrace the light.
as i bid farewell, my heart stops,
in tenderness i feel
my silent empty body begins to listen to
what is real.
the wonder of living,
the wonder of dying
the wind, town and flowers,
we all dance one unity.
somewhere, a voice calls,
in the depths of my heart
keep dreaming your dreams,
dont ever let them part.
why speek of all your sadness
or of life's painful woes
instead let the same lips sing
a gentle song for you.
the whispering voice, we never want to forget,
in each passing memory
always there to guide you.
when a mirror has been brocken,
shattered peiced scattered on the ground
glimps of new life,
reflected all around.
window of beginning, stillness
new light of the dawn
let my silent empty body
be filled and reborn.
no need to search outside,
nor sail acorss the sea
cause here shinning inside me,
its right here inside me
i've found a brightness,
its always with me.
i dont care really why you think i picked this song, but i know and thats all that matters. im not explaining anything to anyone (well maybe someone)... so dont even ask. the song should be pretty explanitory as to how and why i feel about different things. have fun trying to figure me out.