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mk...so i know who the first person to read this will be Tiger, but anyways!
so my day was ok for the most part. school was still boring. all i did was take that really big test in science, watch scenes from Pearl Harbor (the movie) in history, then Schindlers list in english. kinda slow if you ask me.yesterday was a bit better; in math we took a big test, then i signed an entire house in ASL2 (like the floor layout and all the stuff in the house as well) then we had sign time where i caught up on the latest news from my friends in that class; then on to 6th period which is weight class. now most of whoever is reading this should know that i am the coaches 'unoficial TA' on account of ripping my left shoulder out of its socket and having both my knees kicked out from my waterpolo days. instead i went accoss the street with my very close friend Pixy to get subway, then we came back, ate then played hacky-sack with Kevin. both of those days were a lil boring if you ask me...even lunch. yesterday's lunch was me just sitting around waiting for 6th writting in my other journal (my lil blue tape book as i call it) and todays was me walking around with Cherry talking and being our weird selves... that was until this Frosh football player i know started acting a bit odd. me and Cher were walking through the gym to get to the blacktop games when the FFP called my name out. he was sitting in the bleachers with some other girls and his friends when he said, and i quote him: "yeah, Dena! you know these girls, they mean nothing to me!" *looking a lil like he was 'into' me if you know what i mean* as i walked out of there laughing my head off same with Cherry. it was so funny to think that he stood a chance, let alone the fact that i dont want anyone, now or ever really. well, that was my school days...
in my own little world, things are a bit better and a lot more interesting. if you dont already know what im talking about then you might never get it. to put it in lamest tearms: no "bad" thoughts in over 3 months now, i havent touched a blade in like 7 months, i've finally begun to feel truely happy by healing (thank you Tiger, you did that one) and my friends are being the best i could ever ask for. so i have to give shout outs here: I LOVE YOU ALL!! you know who you are, and i thank you so much! but i gotta give the bigest peice to Kit-kit, for always being there for me when i was down. then there is Tiger, who mended my heart back and saved me from drowning in the darkness.
my thoughts are always running away, getting the best of me when i know i should be paying attention; but its not like i cant hear what the person is saying with my mind. no one i know of (even kit) could listen to someone blab on and think out entire situations at the same time. today i was listening to a friends sob-story and the petty fights that go on (that i tend to stay out of unless i get iritated then i intervine and shut them all up) while i was planning my summer. first i kind of want to go to Astronomy camp in Arizonia, but i also want to spend that much more time in Santa Rosa with my old friends. after that my family is dragging me up to my uncles house where we will meet him and my cousins then go to a forested area and ride our bikes and quads. that is going to be my summer for the most part. what my parents dont know is that while i am in Santa Rosa im going to try and meet Tiger there and FINALLY see him in the flesh and the now. the sad part is he still doesnt know what i look like...i will find him though, i know i will. and if i dont, then you can expect me to run away at the end of summer and go see him... show up on his doorstep, pretend im not me, but some girlscout cookie seller or something...be mean to him by later showing up again and saying "and to think, you were gunna tackle me when i showed up! looks like i got the one up on you babe!" *then tackle him* his parents would probably be all like: "WTH! Tiger, who is this girl!!!" and trip big time! *giggles to self* cant wait!
grrss...so much to do and so little time...but then again, what is time? all i know is that i want to do what i want, when i want, how i want, and not be told for once in my life that i cant do it for some lame reason! but if only the world were more like how i picture it...*goes deep into thought* yeah, it would be perfect. everyone would get along, no one would be poor or hungry, homeless, or in any kind of cruel real-world trouble...my cute little world would be very much like the lives of Stepford (that movie with the rodot wives) only people wouldnt be robots. but the dress would be the same and everyone so happy. seriously, why is the would of reality so horrible? can mankind really live with out war? if i had one wish, and i could wish for ABSOLUTALLY anything...id wish that i could see what life on earth would have been like if no wars or any act or hatred of any kind ever happened. (sorry, tiger...i know i found love already, so i wish for this)
ok well...i have to go for now, but i might put in some more entries later so...
-love always!_ Star-
so my day was ok for the most part. school was still boring. all i did was take that really big test in science, watch scenes from Pearl Harbor (the movie) in history, then Schindlers list in english. kinda slow if you ask me.yesterday was a bit better; in math we took a big test, then i signed an entire house in ASL2 (like the floor layout and all the stuff in the house as well) then we had sign time where i caught up on the latest news from my friends in that class; then on to 6th period which is weight class. now most of whoever is reading this should know that i am the coaches 'unoficial TA' on account of ripping my left shoulder out of its socket and having both my knees kicked out from my waterpolo days. instead i went accoss the street with my very close friend Pixy to get subway, then we came back, ate then played hacky-sack with Kevin. both of those days were a lil boring if you ask me...even lunch. yesterday's lunch was me just sitting around waiting for 6th writting in my other journal (my lil blue tape book as i call it) and todays was me walking around with Cherry talking and being our weird selves... that was until this Frosh football player i know started acting a bit odd. me and Cher were walking through the gym to get to the blacktop games when the FFP called my name out. he was sitting in the bleachers with some other girls and his friends when he said, and i quote him: "yeah, Dena! you know these girls, they mean nothing to me!" *looking a lil like he was 'into' me if you know what i mean* as i walked out of there laughing my head off same with Cherry. it was so funny to think that he stood a chance, let alone the fact that i dont want anyone, now or ever really. well, that was my school days...
in my own little world, things are a bit better and a lot more interesting. if you dont already know what im talking about then you might never get it. to put it in lamest tearms: no "bad" thoughts in over 3 months now, i havent touched a blade in like 7 months, i've finally begun to feel truely happy by healing (thank you Tiger, you did that one) and my friends are being the best i could ever ask for. so i have to give shout outs here: I LOVE YOU ALL!! you know who you are, and i thank you so much! but i gotta give the bigest peice to Kit-kit, for always being there for me when i was down. then there is Tiger, who mended my heart back and saved me from drowning in the darkness.
my thoughts are always running away, getting the best of me when i know i should be paying attention; but its not like i cant hear what the person is saying with my mind. no one i know of (even kit) could listen to someone blab on and think out entire situations at the same time. today i was listening to a friends sob-story and the petty fights that go on (that i tend to stay out of unless i get iritated then i intervine and shut them all up) while i was planning my summer. first i kind of want to go to Astronomy camp in Arizonia, but i also want to spend that much more time in Santa Rosa with my old friends. after that my family is dragging me up to my uncles house where we will meet him and my cousins then go to a forested area and ride our bikes and quads. that is going to be my summer for the most part. what my parents dont know is that while i am in Santa Rosa im going to try and meet Tiger there and FINALLY see him in the flesh and the now. the sad part is he still doesnt know what i look like...i will find him though, i know i will. and if i dont, then you can expect me to run away at the end of summer and go see him... show up on his doorstep, pretend im not me, but some girlscout cookie seller or something...be mean to him by later showing up again and saying "and to think, you were gunna tackle me when i showed up! looks like i got the one up on you babe!" *then tackle him* his parents would probably be all like: "WTH! Tiger, who is this girl!!!" and trip big time! *giggles to self* cant wait!
grrss...so much to do and so little time...but then again, what is time? all i know is that i want to do what i want, when i want, how i want, and not be told for once in my life that i cant do it for some lame reason! but if only the world were more like how i picture it...*goes deep into thought* yeah, it would be perfect. everyone would get along, no one would be poor or hungry, homeless, or in any kind of cruel real-world trouble...my cute little world would be very much like the lives of Stepford (that movie with the rodot wives) only people wouldnt be robots. but the dress would be the same and everyone so happy. seriously, why is the would of reality so horrible? can mankind really live with out war? if i had one wish, and i could wish for ABSOLUTALLY anything...id wish that i could see what life on earth would have been like if no wars or any act or hatred of any kind ever happened. (sorry, tiger...i know i found love already, so i wish for this)
ok well...i have to go for now, but i might put in some more entries later so...
-love always!_ Star-