"It's always have and never hold"
I had a nice weekend...other than being once again tired of hanging out with sketchy guys! Seriously, I would love to meet someone who is either available or looking for something other than getting laid.
One of my friends called me up - asked if I wanted to go see a band w/ him at one of the bars in Gboro. Sure, why not. So he came over to my apt - I was still in the shower, so he had to wait for a few min until I got ready. First, I do want to note that he was nice and bought me a bulb for the front headlight of the expedition - one of the bulbs went out Thurs or Friday. Okay, that was a very nice gesture...
We have made a point to try and get together once every week or so for dinner - if I drive to Winston he pays, when he drives here I pay. I think it's a good trade off. It's always been fun meeting up for dinner - it's always in the middle of the week, so it's a nice break and I always come home hurting from laughing so much (thats not a bad thing). I like getting together with him b/c there isnt pressure...he has a girlfriend in Atlanta that he goes to visit every other weekend. Okay, so I can roll up in there wearing some work out pants and a fleece - no big deal.
Anyway, as I digress...we go out to Greene Street...he pays for us to get in b/c it was a band he wanted to see. Again, noted. We take turns buying drinks at the bar (b/c it can get pricey). BUT on the way down there - he drove - he made some comment like, "I dont want you to think I'm hanging out with you this weekend because my gf and I got in a fight and are taking a break" - Excuse me? My response was..."uh okay...why would I have thought that...that wasn't even necessary to say." It's true...there was no need to say that, why would you say that unless you have other intentions? No clue. So there is the first weird comment of the evening...I made sure to ask about the gf and bring her up during casual conversation. Isn't that just convenient that they are 'on a break'.
We stay at Greene Street for a little while (while the band is playing). Let me tell ya, there was an interesting crowd in there - specifically I remember getting pretty excited over seeing a group of people with CAPES on...really! Also, people with their ears gauged so big that you could stick your finger through the hole - I always want to do that (not the gauge...but stick my finger through their ear, haha). Then left to meet my roommate, her boyfriend, and some of their friends at Natty Greens. Anyway, I thought it was extremely generous of him to keep buying my roommate drinks...I was at my limit and prob would have passed out had I drank anything more - so I stopped (with the exception of the cup Charlie - Karin's bf - gave me...he had a couple pitchers on the table when we got there) - so I had 1 beer there...compliments of Charlie. My tolerance is pretty low...I dont drink all that often - I hate the way I feel the next day! If I do, it's usually A beer - then I'm the one who volunteers to drive. Not this time - reminded me of freshman year with Karin - we were both pretty gone - I remember playing with the Cherries in her drink - and I think Gray jumped up on the table...and the server came over and gave him a high 5? I dunno - all of that is a little fuzzy. Charlie was our driver...he was the 'most sober' - I dont know how much he had, but we would have called a cab had we really needed to. Anyway, it's time to leave, I'm waiting on Karin to get outta the bathroom, Gray is paying his tab, but calls me over...his card was declined. I willingly pull out my card, thinking it's not a big deal...then I look at the bill...UH OVER $50! I dont even remember how much of a tip I left...crap. I'm pretty sure it all ended up being $60 something - but that may have been the bill. Thanks jerk. I didn't even get anything at this bar!
Earlier in the day, Karin and I went to New York and Co. - everything was 50% off in the store - thats pretty sweet...so we got some clothes - I wanted to get some more stuff to wear at the school - pants, etc. I'm not working right now, so I've tried to budget the rest of my money - it's tight - so basically I dip into 'food money' when I buy clothes - no worries...I can eat cheap. After that unexpected bar tab I returned half of the stuff I bought because I can't afford all of that! It was my choice not to work - I knew I would have to be extremely careful w/ spending - I would be in better shape but I've spent a ton just driving that beast of a car - the gas for that thing is TWICE what I would pay normally - tonight I put in $42 to fill it up - and it wasnt even on empty! I can't wait until I am teaching - and getting paid for it! Then I won't worry as much! Right now I'm paying to teach. Lucky me.
Anyway, the whole point is SKETCHY!! He went to an ATM earlier that night and said something as he tried to get money out - I couldnt hear what he said, but his reaction made me think he didn't have much money - okay, great...just tell me, it's cool! DONT ORDER whatever you want at the bar (unless I say - hey! it's all on me!) and then make me pay for it at the end of the night - NOT COOL. Then driving home he's pulling shit like, "I really like you" ...I said, okay great, I like you too....as my FRIEND! UH HELLO - GIRLFRIEND!!! My attitude...don't touch me! I pushed his hands away a few times and literally said, DONT TOUCH ME.
SKETCHY SKETCHY SKETCHY! That's how I'm feeling! Very frustrated. I'm tired of these 'guy friends' being friends....to sleep with me or whatever the intent is. Another guy did that about a month ago...I had a few psych classes with him at UNCC, he just moved up here and wanted to get together....for more than dinner. I AM NOT LIKE THAT!!!! NOR have I EVER been!
Oh yea - another thing! Gray was really pissing me off - he kept/keeps making comments about my height - YES I KNOW I AM TALL - DEAL WITH IT! He said, it's intimidating - I said if you're not secure it is. Seriously, I realize I am tall! It doesnt bother me until someone continuously points it out - then it's irritating...especially when they are being critical...there is NOTHING I can do about it, so please, stop. I had 2 other friends - both athletes in HS who are my height - we were called 'Amazonians' look it up, they are the perfect women.
I like having guy friends - a lot...girls can be so catty. But I guess the only reason they are friends with you is b/c they wanna 'get with you' in some way, shape or form. Same thing with my 'friend' James - met him while I was out in California last year...WHILE I had a boyfriend - he knew that...hung out with a few times - no big deal. Broke up with Shahn, remained friends with James, then came to find out 2 weeks ago that I 'broke his heart' when I went out w/ Ben - lovely. 1 date and this guy changes his myspace name to 'crashed and burned' and puts up the song 'akon - don't matter'. UGH. Where did he get the idea we were MORE than friends????
It's a lose/lose situation...so I feel. I've been friends w/ bobby for YEARS - seriously, since we were 10...swam together, coached together - his reaction when I told him Shahn and I weren't together was "Sweet! Julie's back on the market" - seriously, you've got to be kidding. Fortunately, we are cool - he's never tried anything - I would hope he knows better.
My mom finally called this weekend...I told her about some of this and she said, "You'll always have guys chasing after you, you're beautiful...just as long as you dont get fat!" haha, nice mom.
I am just going to walk around with a bag over my head. Sure, women like to hear they are beautiful...but I feel like I have soooo much more to offer than a pretty face. It seems that the guys I attract with my 'brain' I dont find too attractive - usually because they have never stepped foot in the gym. I would REALLY like the whole package - please! I'm not talking about supermodel. Exercise is very important - it's a lifestyle. My standards are just really high...Shahn was a high jumper (literally) so I guess he made it over the bar. hah.
FRUSTRATION = me this weekend. Saturday I had a really nice time out with Melissa. It was gorgeous outside, so we walked around, got lunch, and just enjoyed the day! Saw Kristy tonight...missed her this weekend, she was tied up doing stuff w/ the Children's Museum and Church. Kelly - at the beach. Next weekend I'm going home to see the fam and Kelly. I've gotta build some boxes about 1 1/2 - 2ft high for the kids to stand on...I'm making 5 of them and painting the letters "D R E A M" across them. I'm not thrilled about constructing these boxes b/c I only have basic TOOL knowledge - I'll go to lowes and find some materials (i.e. paint and wood - I guess some 2x4's and a few longer sheets of something strong) - I'm more excited about painting them.
One of my friends called me up - asked if I wanted to go see a band w/ him at one of the bars in Gboro. Sure, why not. So he came over to my apt - I was still in the shower, so he had to wait for a few min until I got ready. First, I do want to note that he was nice and bought me a bulb for the front headlight of the expedition - one of the bulbs went out Thurs or Friday. Okay, that was a very nice gesture...
We have made a point to try and get together once every week or so for dinner - if I drive to Winston he pays, when he drives here I pay. I think it's a good trade off. It's always been fun meeting up for dinner - it's always in the middle of the week, so it's a nice break and I always come home hurting from laughing so much (thats not a bad thing). I like getting together with him b/c there isnt pressure...he has a girlfriend in Atlanta that he goes to visit every other weekend. Okay, so I can roll up in there wearing some work out pants and a fleece - no big deal.
Anyway, as I digress...we go out to Greene Street...he pays for us to get in b/c it was a band he wanted to see. Again, noted. We take turns buying drinks at the bar (b/c it can get pricey). BUT on the way down there - he drove - he made some comment like, "I dont want you to think I'm hanging out with you this weekend because my gf and I got in a fight and are taking a break" - Excuse me? My response was..."uh okay...why would I have thought that...that wasn't even necessary to say." It's true...there was no need to say that, why would you say that unless you have other intentions? No clue. So there is the first weird comment of the evening...I made sure to ask about the gf and bring her up during casual conversation. Isn't that just convenient that they are 'on a break'.
We stay at Greene Street for a little while (while the band is playing). Let me tell ya, there was an interesting crowd in there - specifically I remember getting pretty excited over seeing a group of people with CAPES on...really! Also, people with their ears gauged so big that you could stick your finger through the hole - I always want to do that (not the gauge...but stick my finger through their ear, haha). Then left to meet my roommate, her boyfriend, and some of their friends at Natty Greens. Anyway, I thought it was extremely generous of him to keep buying my roommate drinks...I was at my limit and prob would have passed out had I drank anything more - so I stopped (with the exception of the cup Charlie - Karin's bf - gave me...he had a couple pitchers on the table when we got there) - so I had 1 beer there...compliments of Charlie. My tolerance is pretty low...I dont drink all that often - I hate the way I feel the next day! If I do, it's usually A beer - then I'm the one who volunteers to drive. Not this time - reminded me of freshman year with Karin - we were both pretty gone - I remember playing with the Cherries in her drink - and I think Gray jumped up on the table...and the server came over and gave him a high 5? I dunno - all of that is a little fuzzy. Charlie was our driver...he was the 'most sober' - I dont know how much he had, but we would have called a cab had we really needed to. Anyway, it's time to leave, I'm waiting on Karin to get outta the bathroom, Gray is paying his tab, but calls me over...his card was declined. I willingly pull out my card, thinking it's not a big deal...then I look at the bill...UH OVER $50! I dont even remember how much of a tip I left...crap. I'm pretty sure it all ended up being $60 something - but that may have been the bill. Thanks jerk. I didn't even get anything at this bar!
Earlier in the day, Karin and I went to New York and Co. - everything was 50% off in the store - thats pretty sweet...so we got some clothes - I wanted to get some more stuff to wear at the school - pants, etc. I'm not working right now, so I've tried to budget the rest of my money - it's tight - so basically I dip into 'food money' when I buy clothes - no worries...I can eat cheap. After that unexpected bar tab I returned half of the stuff I bought because I can't afford all of that! It was my choice not to work - I knew I would have to be extremely careful w/ spending - I would be in better shape but I've spent a ton just driving that beast of a car - the gas for that thing is TWICE what I would pay normally - tonight I put in $42 to fill it up - and it wasnt even on empty! I can't wait until I am teaching - and getting paid for it! Then I won't worry as much! Right now I'm paying to teach. Lucky me.
Anyway, the whole point is SKETCHY!! He went to an ATM earlier that night and said something as he tried to get money out - I couldnt hear what he said, but his reaction made me think he didn't have much money - okay, great...just tell me, it's cool! DONT ORDER whatever you want at the bar (unless I say - hey! it's all on me!) and then make me pay for it at the end of the night - NOT COOL. Then driving home he's pulling shit like, "I really like you" ...I said, okay great, I like you too....as my FRIEND! UH HELLO - GIRLFRIEND!!! My attitude...don't touch me! I pushed his hands away a few times and literally said, DONT TOUCH ME.
SKETCHY SKETCHY SKETCHY! That's how I'm feeling! Very frustrated. I'm tired of these 'guy friends' being friends....to sleep with me or whatever the intent is. Another guy did that about a month ago...I had a few psych classes with him at UNCC, he just moved up here and wanted to get together....for more than dinner. I AM NOT LIKE THAT!!!! NOR have I EVER been!
Oh yea - another thing! Gray was really pissing me off - he kept/keeps making comments about my height - YES I KNOW I AM TALL - DEAL WITH IT! He said, it's intimidating - I said if you're not secure it is. Seriously, I realize I am tall! It doesnt bother me until someone continuously points it out - then it's irritating...especially when they are being critical...there is NOTHING I can do about it, so please, stop. I had 2 other friends - both athletes in HS who are my height - we were called 'Amazonians' look it up, they are the perfect women.
I like having guy friends - a lot...girls can be so catty. But I guess the only reason they are friends with you is b/c they wanna 'get with you' in some way, shape or form. Same thing with my 'friend' James - met him while I was out in California last year...WHILE I had a boyfriend - he knew that...hung out with a few times - no big deal. Broke up with Shahn, remained friends with James, then came to find out 2 weeks ago that I 'broke his heart' when I went out w/ Ben - lovely. 1 date and this guy changes his myspace name to 'crashed and burned' and puts up the song 'akon - don't matter'. UGH. Where did he get the idea we were MORE than friends????
It's a lose/lose situation...so I feel. I've been friends w/ bobby for YEARS - seriously, since we were 10...swam together, coached together - his reaction when I told him Shahn and I weren't together was "Sweet! Julie's back on the market" - seriously, you've got to be kidding. Fortunately, we are cool - he's never tried anything - I would hope he knows better.
My mom finally called this weekend...I told her about some of this and she said, "You'll always have guys chasing after you, you're beautiful...just as long as you dont get fat!" haha, nice mom.
I am just going to walk around with a bag over my head. Sure, women like to hear they are beautiful...but I feel like I have soooo much more to offer than a pretty face. It seems that the guys I attract with my 'brain' I dont find too attractive - usually because they have never stepped foot in the gym. I would REALLY like the whole package - please! I'm not talking about supermodel. Exercise is very important - it's a lifestyle. My standards are just really high...Shahn was a high jumper (literally) so I guess he made it over the bar. hah.
FRUSTRATION = me this weekend. Saturday I had a really nice time out with Melissa. It was gorgeous outside, so we walked around, got lunch, and just enjoyed the day! Saw Kristy tonight...missed her this weekend, she was tied up doing stuff w/ the Children's Museum and Church. Kelly - at the beach. Next weekend I'm going home to see the fam and Kelly. I've gotta build some boxes about 1 1/2 - 2ft high for the kids to stand on...I'm making 5 of them and painting the letters "D R E A M" across them. I'm not thrilled about constructing these boxes b/c I only have basic TOOL knowledge - I'll go to lowes and find some materials (i.e. paint and wood - I guess some 2x4's and a few longer sheets of something strong) - I'm more excited about painting them.