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everyone dies eventually.its just a fact of life.so why is it when some one dies, even some one you know lived a full life, it just hits you like a ton of bricks?and what could i possibly have done so bad for this past year to suck so bad(with the exception of my gorgeous baby of course).i feel like im losing everyone i hold dear.my great grandma, at the age of 95, died yesterday.i didnt even get a chance to say goodbye to her.i loved her so much.she was by far one of the craziest people i have ever met.every story she ever told you always ended with a cute guy.she was such a flirt.i feel lost.i have almost no one left.and even though i know that everyone dies eventually and that she wanted to die...well it just doesnt make you feel any better.i dont know what to do anymore.all i know is that we are leaving for ny tonight for the wake and funeral.and to visit some family.but why is it that almost everytime we go and visit people it is always such a sad occasion.cant something good ever happen to bring us all together?it doesnt seem so.god life sucks sometimes.