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why is it when one thing goes good something else has to go completely wrong?or maybe its just my life since it insists on sucking so badly.well i went to the drs today and everything seems to be doing ok.she said she just had to check the glucose test.which oops i didnt get done until today.and with all the horror stories ive heard about it it wasnt all that bad with the exception of the needle which i will never get used to.then i come home and me and rachelle decide to watch pirates of the carribean since for as much as she loves johny depp she has never seen it.about a half an hour into it my mom calls and is all mad at me cuz i didnt check the messages when i got home and shes been trying to get ahold of me all afternoon.it turns out my grandmother is in the hospital.she fell getting out of bed this morning and broke her shoulder.she then refused to leave until they told her whats wrong with her and why shes been in so much pain.well she has cancer in her lungs.and there is a lump pressing on her spine that we dont know if its cancerous yet but thats whats causing alot of pain.they are going to try treatment to shrink it so they can try to operate on it.i feel lost.im losing everything.i cant lose her too.i hold on for her.i dont know what im going to do.i know were leaving tomorrow night to go up there.i may possibly lose my job but what else can i do?there is only so much i can do.and thats not much.i have to go.i cant stay while my mom goes.i would feel like an asshole.my grandmother has always been there when i needed her.why wouldnt i do the same for her.damn i hate my life.