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I think I may have made Maia happy today. She was bored so she came to see me. It turns out that she accidently gauged her eyebrow to a bigger size so that means that I was able to give her a bunch of new free things so she can decorate herself with. She going to look so stylish I just know it. While she was here we decided to have a bonfire tongith so that should be fun.
I love bonfires so much. Maybe its due to the fact that I think of Fall when I think about them and Fall is actually my favorite season. Or maybe its because at bonfires you always have fun no matter what, whether it is 2 people or 20. The moral of that story is to say that I am excited for tonight.
Ya know its weird. Its Neal's last night in town before he leaves for Western and Im really sad. I can't really figure it out though. I mean I havent talked to him all summer because he went to Ohio to work and we have only hung out a couple times in the past like 2 weeeks. Oh well tonight is a night for good-byes.
It feels good not to be with Mark anymore. Its been a week exactly today. It feels like it has been so much longer. I admit I miss having a boyfriend but I dont think that he was a good one for me or really a good one for anyone. He just has a lot of growing up to do.
Ive been talking to Mike P a lot lately. He imed me about a wek ago one night when Juli was over with a huge apology, I couldnt even speak I didnt know what to do it was so random. So we've been talking when he is at some internet cafe in Cali where he lives. I feel bad for him though. I know I shouldnt because of our messed up past and him being such a dick but how could I not feel bad for him? Hes living in a BOX! Yeah sad huh? He will be getting an apartment soon though well on 9/11 that is. I dont like him anymore but its just nice to talk to him and us really get along.
I feel like a lot of my ex's or even guys from my past I am talking to a lot lately. Its good. I hate leaving things on bad terms. I see Justin a lot now. Im so happy that we saw eachother driving and ever since then its been fun. He comes to the mall a lot and he always stops! :o) I miss him a lot. Not a miss you I still love you I want you back but a I miss you lets be friends again. Its true that I will always love him but I am okay with that and actually like having a first great love. Im glad he's happy now as cliche as that sounds.
I've been hanging out with the people that I used to hang out with a lot. Beign the girls and a couple of the guys. It feels good to hang out with old friends. I love it now because even though not every person may want me there, well maybe just one person, I dont care anymore. I dont care if people dont like me thats fine with me. Ive grown up and with growing up Ive learned a lot of new things. I have learned that not everybody who you think is your best friend will actually give you the respet that you give to them. Ive learned that as much as something may seem so important at one time its mearly drama and in the grand sceme of things you will most likely not even remember that it happened. Basically Ive learned that even though not everybody will be happy with who you are or what you do that shouldnt matter as long as youre happy with yourself.
Well Im going to go do something productive maybe organize tongue rings or polish nipple shields who know? See some of you tonight and the ones I dont have a blessed night! Love
I love bonfires so much. Maybe its due to the fact that I think of Fall when I think about them and Fall is actually my favorite season. Or maybe its because at bonfires you always have fun no matter what, whether it is 2 people or 20. The moral of that story is to say that I am excited for tonight.
Ya know its weird. Its Neal's last night in town before he leaves for Western and Im really sad. I can't really figure it out though. I mean I havent talked to him all summer because he went to Ohio to work and we have only hung out a couple times in the past like 2 weeeks. Oh well tonight is a night for good-byes.
It feels good not to be with Mark anymore. Its been a week exactly today. It feels like it has been so much longer. I admit I miss having a boyfriend but I dont think that he was a good one for me or really a good one for anyone. He just has a lot of growing up to do.
Ive been talking to Mike P a lot lately. He imed me about a wek ago one night when Juli was over with a huge apology, I couldnt even speak I didnt know what to do it was so random. So we've been talking when he is at some internet cafe in Cali where he lives. I feel bad for him though. I know I shouldnt because of our messed up past and him being such a dick but how could I not feel bad for him? Hes living in a BOX! Yeah sad huh? He will be getting an apartment soon though well on 9/11 that is. I dont like him anymore but its just nice to talk to him and us really get along.
I feel like a lot of my ex's or even guys from my past I am talking to a lot lately. Its good. I hate leaving things on bad terms. I see Justin a lot now. Im so happy that we saw eachother driving and ever since then its been fun. He comes to the mall a lot and he always stops! :o) I miss him a lot. Not a miss you I still love you I want you back but a I miss you lets be friends again. Its true that I will always love him but I am okay with that and actually like having a first great love. Im glad he's happy now as cliche as that sounds.
I've been hanging out with the people that I used to hang out with a lot. Beign the girls and a couple of the guys. It feels good to hang out with old friends. I love it now because even though not every person may want me there, well maybe just one person, I dont care anymore. I dont care if people dont like me thats fine with me. Ive grown up and with growing up Ive learned a lot of new things. I have learned that not everybody who you think is your best friend will actually give you the respet that you give to them. Ive learned that as much as something may seem so important at one time its mearly drama and in the grand sceme of things you will most likely not even remember that it happened. Basically Ive learned that even though not everybody will be happy with who you are or what you do that shouldnt matter as long as youre happy with yourself.
Well Im going to go do something productive maybe organize tongue rings or polish nipple shields who know? See some of you tonight and the ones I dont have a blessed night! Love