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So just when I thought that everything was great and that things were going to work out, they don’t. I was tricked and played as a fool. I thought that this time would be different that I could actually settle down with a guy instead playing the game and getting him then not wanting him. I feel like my normal behavior towards the opposite sex is such of a guys, and that is weird. Why is it so hard for me to settle down with somebody now? I feel like ever since Justin I don’t want to be with anybody because I know how relationship can come out in the end and how people get hurt all of the time. I mean are the few months of happiness really worth the pain you feel in the end. I always didn’t think so, until I met Mark. Damn that boy. There’s just something about him that I can’t get enough of. I’ve known him for almost a month now and I still love spending time with him. We went to a movie last night. It was Eric, Nick, Jess, Mark and I that went to go see the Batman movie. The movie wasn’t that great well I guess I can’t really give a good opinion considering I was either kissing Mark, sleeping on Mark, or talking to Mark. It was great I had an awesome time. It was perfect, well except for the fact that I’m sick so that put a damper on things. After the movie the 5 of us went to Dream Depot and we played a bit. I didn’t feel good so while everybody was playing Hide-N-Go-Seek I went to stand in the field to watch the deer under the moon. It was so amazing. I was so close to them, them being 6 of them. They knew that I was there they watched for what seemed to be forever. After a while they then decided to continue grazing. I sat there just staring at the moon and the stars in complete silence. For some reason I wasn’t even scared, which is surprising for me considering I always am frightened by something. I guess everybody was looking for me but then Mark saw me so he ran over and we all then played for a bit more. All in all it was a great night. Tonight we all plan to hang out again I hope that it turns out to be as good as I hope. I talked to Mark today before he went to work and we had a not so great talk. It was about being together and what not. So we will see what happens. I know that even though I am scared and so is he I think that we could have a great relationship.
Jess and Nick are adorable together! It makes me sick! Haha no not really because I’m completely happy with Mark and I know that her and I are in the same situation. I mean how perfect 2 best friends being with 2 other best friends? Pure Perfection indeed!! :o)
"Cause it's you and me..."
It is just so funny how many people can come up to you and hit on you I even had a girl ask me out today while I was sitting her at work. I never realized either how many “black guys” are interested in “white girls” either. Oh well whatever people like I guess.
Work has been so long lately I mean working 2-9 Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Probably 10-9 on Saturday yuck 11 hours in one day! Then open to close (11-6) on Sunday. I mean granted my job isn’t that hard you just need to learn a lot of stuff but now that I am manager I have so many other responsibilities and duties. Like the entire bank stuff which sucks. Damn the working life gets old real quick, that is until I see my paycheck for just over $500 then I'm lovin' it!
Things with Jess have been going good still. So that is exciting. Starting June 26 we will be house sitting for some family of hers. I wish I could make that into our job or something I love house sitting for people it’s so much fun! We will do that until July 4. On the 3rd Nick, Jess, Mark, and I are all going to watch the local fireworks and it works out great because I will already have a spot to park because I have to work that night then afterwards go back and hang out with the boys at Mark’s apartment right behind the mall. I just hope that Mark doesn’t end up having to work. Then on the 4th Jess and I are going to go hang out with my brother, his girlfriend (sister-in-law), and their friends in Grand Haven and watch those fireworks. It should be a great way to begin the week considering that it’s my favorite holiday!!!
Well I’m bored once again so I am going to go clean and re-organize. Have a great night everyone and I can’t wait to see some of you at open mic night! Love you!
Jess and Nick are adorable together! It makes me sick! Haha no not really because I’m completely happy with Mark and I know that her and I are in the same situation. I mean how perfect 2 best friends being with 2 other best friends? Pure Perfection indeed!! :o)
"Cause it's you and me..."
It is just so funny how many people can come up to you and hit on you I even had a girl ask me out today while I was sitting her at work. I never realized either how many “black guys” are interested in “white girls” either. Oh well whatever people like I guess.
Work has been so long lately I mean working 2-9 Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Probably 10-9 on Saturday yuck 11 hours in one day! Then open to close (11-6) on Sunday. I mean granted my job isn’t that hard you just need to learn a lot of stuff but now that I am manager I have so many other responsibilities and duties. Like the entire bank stuff which sucks. Damn the working life gets old real quick, that is until I see my paycheck for just over $500 then I'm lovin' it!
Things with Jess have been going good still. So that is exciting. Starting June 26 we will be house sitting for some family of hers. I wish I could make that into our job or something I love house sitting for people it’s so much fun! We will do that until July 4. On the 3rd Nick, Jess, Mark, and I are all going to watch the local fireworks and it works out great because I will already have a spot to park because I have to work that night then afterwards go back and hang out with the boys at Mark’s apartment right behind the mall. I just hope that Mark doesn’t end up having to work. Then on the 4th Jess and I are going to go hang out with my brother, his girlfriend (sister-in-law), and their friends in Grand Haven and watch those fireworks. It should be a great way to begin the week considering that it’s my favorite holiday!!!
Well I’m bored once again so I am going to go clean and re-organize. Have a great night everyone and I can’t wait to see some of you at open mic night! Love you!