For Mr. Cat but also just for.

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Well, I ask myself. Why would I have wanted to know more about John Dee back in 2009? I really don't remember. What I can recall is that since about 2007 I've really doubted/been forced to cynicism most western (or just MOST in general) esoteric writing and teaching. 2007 was about the time that I was reading more than normal. I was working on "

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It was January of 2009...you were grilling me about Enochiana...mostly the "Authentic John Dee Way" of doing things and I gave my experiences...the personal spin on the system arising more out of Thelemic spins, a bit of Crowley here, a truck load of Lon Milo DuQuette There, a sprinkling of Max Delsid thru out, and my own two decades of experience going back to my first copy of THE VISION AND THE VOICE summer of '82...the Popular Revival with the first Jerry Schueler Book and books in 85-90...then the head of Ourboros (camp) before it was a camp being so amped about it she imported this guy from Texas who BIT just about anybody's Enochian Style he could find (usually anyone in the OTO with a degree higher than his 2nd...which at the time he though being 2nd was THE SHIT, especially around non inits like us and talking nothing but shit about Jerry Schueler's Llwellyanized Enochian...to the point of repeating supposed declaration of Sally Glassman (who did the art work on Schuler's ENOCHIAN TAROT) where she supposedly said "This guy has never been here!!!!!" referring to various Aires that were represented as cards in the deck (granted nearly all of Jerry's descriptives for those cards were watered down verions of the Aires in Vision and the Voice)...out of which came an Enochian Colouring book...and little did pour ShARASh realize that his partner in Enochian Culture crime was stealing most of her material from the back of Jerry's Books.

My Decades long yen for it, which often caused me trouble in Thelemic circles (along with my flip side interest in the HGA stuff) where people were either terrified of it (It made my teacher's water heater explode) or bored by it (I thought we were all gonna learn sex magick and be instantly elevated to IXths where's the fucking cocaine and champagne and sushi orgy?)

My interest in all things Enochian, the Crack Cocaine of Magick and the Spiritual side of life, pretty much was permanently scratched when I successfully did a straight run from TEX to LIL in one go, without hitting any glass ceilings, road blocks, etc...only because I had finally completed a task I had been told I had to complete while exploring the Tablet of Union and the Towers...once I had the source code and skeleton key and flew all the way to the center of all things which is also the edge of all things....that was it...I no longer cared. Mastery of the the Four towers and the Union? Furt.

I was also inspired by the impending war and the sense that we would all end up NUKED as a result...and if I died in a Gamma Ray Wash from that and then was burned alive while the radiation sickness killed me then was blown apart, and I hadn't done that, it would be a major regret carried into future lives.

I finished the journal, grounded it, got laid off the next day from the only job I ever loved, and the Iraq war started the next day. I decided to read BLOOD AND GOLD and then began a concentrated study of the Kaballah, so intently a Jewish Mystic moved in to the neighborhood.