life is such
its a struggle. a bloody struggle. my words are clumsy and my motives are pretty hit or miss. even the good lessons i try to teach are tainted, chipped, and marred. i bumble about like a dim eyed rat in a maze. one moment you think there's cheese and then... a wall.
life is hard. leading, now there's a problem. you've got to do this in such a way as to be effective, tender, and tough but never going too far one way or the other cause thats when things go bad. here's the catch: whether you're right or wrong sometimes things just go bad. what i mean there is that sometimes you can have the best intentions and even have a pure motive yet pick the wrong timing or maybe even just be up against the wall of pride... and the proverbial poo hits the fan.
i'm still trying to get a handle on this husbandry stuff. its really hard. i feel like a total moron half the time.
but God is good and everytime my wife bucks me and i'm wondering "why God?" its almost like He's saying "i could say the same about you a lot couldn't i?". that really puts things into perspective, ya know. to be honest, though, a good chunk of my struggle is just from me being a sinner trapped in this rotting meatsuit waiting to go home. i just wish it were easier to tell the difference between the times when i'm on to something and when i should just keep my trap shut.
life is hard. leading, now there's a problem. you've got to do this in such a way as to be effective, tender, and tough but never going too far one way or the other cause thats when things go bad. here's the catch: whether you're right or wrong sometimes things just go bad. what i mean there is that sometimes you can have the best intentions and even have a pure motive yet pick the wrong timing or maybe even just be up against the wall of pride... and the proverbial poo hits the fan.
i'm still trying to get a handle on this husbandry stuff. its really hard. i feel like a total moron half the time.
but God is good and everytime my wife bucks me and i'm wondering "why God?" its almost like He's saying "i could say the same about you a lot couldn't i?". that really puts things into perspective, ya know. to be honest, though, a good chunk of my struggle is just from me being a sinner trapped in this rotting meatsuit waiting to go home. i just wish it were easier to tell the difference between the times when i'm on to something and when i should just keep my trap shut.