EVERYONE AROUND ME IS HOOKING UP AND BEING KYUT
Er, icon unrelated to subject! The icon is purely for the stuff under the cut and how it relates to work today colliding with an opera test tomorrow and a film assignment due next Monday morning and how all that is making me more stressed than I tend to let on.
The amount of panic in my journal makes it pretty clear that I suck at noticing due dates or starting things. I've worked out that I'm most likely bad at starting things because I don't want to fail at it, but I only realized recently that I'm substantially better at remembering due dates for group assignments.
And I think I've worked out why, and why I tend to keep roleplaying or at least F5ing character flists when I should be doing school stuff:
I seem to prioritize stuff higher if it affects more than just me. If I slack off on an essay or something, I'm the only one who falls for it, but if I put off a group project, the rest of the group is affected. Similarly with roleplaying, if I put off a tag, someone else's play is affected.
So I guess as well as paying better attention to deadlines and actually looking at the course outlines once in a while, I ought to figure out that it's okay to be selfish once in a while too. Especially when it comes to school stuff, holy GOD.
EDIT: And I guess with that, I need to learn it's okay to be more honest too. "Okay" is not the only mood I'm allowed to be when people ask how I am. But that I think is getting into a weird self defense mechanism I'm still trying to self analyze.
And I also need to stop looking at my Latin books and making the D: face for hours on end. So much as looking at homework should not fill me with such dread.
- 00:21 Crap: I have a NaNoWriMo idea and it's a Hetalia OC fanfic. #
- 12:45 Studylink wrote me...with my student loan invoice and no word whatsoever about allowance. Brilliant. #
- 19:26 1/3ish: I really love BNZ's current ad campaign, but there is a serious safety issue in the TV ad that goes unaddressed! #
- 19:29 2: Little kids get run down in their own driveways every day because they're too small for their parents to see when they're backing out. #
- 19:31 3: So how the hell does the farmer see a thirty centimeter high pig helping him back the ute? ESPECIALLY when the pig falls over backwards! #
- 20:04 Oh my sister: "I know what I'm going to use to make nunchucks! Two empty air freshener cans!" #
- 20:20 Watching Beauty & the Beast. Raeann: How is a coat rack playing the violin? How does it change chords? Me: How does a man turn into a beast? #
The amount of panic in my journal makes it pretty clear that I suck at noticing due dates or starting things. I've worked out that I'm most likely bad at starting things because I don't want to fail at it, but I only realized recently that I'm substantially better at remembering due dates for group assignments.
And I think I've worked out why, and why I tend to keep roleplaying or at least F5ing character flists when I should be doing school stuff:
I seem to prioritize stuff higher if it affects more than just me. If I slack off on an essay or something, I'm the only one who falls for it, but if I put off a group project, the rest of the group is affected. Similarly with roleplaying, if I put off a tag, someone else's play is affected.
So I guess as well as paying better attention to deadlines and actually looking at the course outlines once in a while, I ought to figure out that it's okay to be selfish once in a while too. Especially when it comes to school stuff, holy GOD.
EDIT: And I guess with that, I need to learn it's okay to be more honest too. "Okay" is not the only mood I'm allowed to be when people ask how I am. But that I think is getting into a weird self defense mechanism I'm still trying to self analyze.
And I also need to stop looking at my Latin books and making the D: face for hours on end. So much as looking at homework should not fill me with such dread.