Well...I just don't know what to say.
Since I last posted, which wasn't all that long ago, I just don't know how I"ve managed to get through it without completely mixing up my days and going even more insane than I normally am. I've managed to get to work as scheduled. This is a good thing. I haven't spent much time with honey despite making efforts to squeeze in the time, but circumstance has always somehow managed to cancel our plans. If it wasn't for my mom coming out of the hospital after having been in there for a solid week, I wouldn't have had to stay home instead of going to his house. I was fine with this, it is after all, my mother. He threw a hissy fit, but he quickly backpedalled. I think he realized how much it hurt my feelings that he would hold it against me for not wanting my mom to be basically by herself when she's barely capable of walking around the house. Since then, mom went back into the hospital, and I've been working almost every day. It might even be every day. I don't really know, since I've kind of lost track of days, here. I know its now Tuesday, and that tomorrow is Halloween. I don't have any plans for my favorite holiday but I do know something I should do. I really need to try to make time for a private ritual on Halloween. I have much to ask, and I'm not sure how deep I need to dig in my soul. I just hope that I will find the time and that I don't wind up asking for too much.