Blood Sucking Fiends!
Yeah, I know. Lame title.
I was sitting at home with no net last night and decided I needed to watch a movie to pass the time. Given my current mindset, I wanted something with as little "romantic" anything as possible. So I settled upon "Interview With The Vampire."
I'm fairly sure I'm one of the few people in the world who will "like" something and then question why I have an interest or infatuation with it. I've always had an interest in vampires and the whole vampire myth and lore. And when I started thinking about it, I realized it wasn't because of the whole supernatural thing or the gothic angle...it's because the concept of a vampire means life eternal and the struggle to find, if not love, then maybe simply a companion for the journey. In the movie, Armand mentions that most don't have the stamina to go through life endlessly; they end up killing themselves. I couldn't help but think that a lot of people are in that same struggle. Day to day life, even with a cap of 70 something years, seems like an extremely long time.
I'm rambling.
In other news, while I'm somewhat depressed still, I think I'm mature enough to understand that sometimes, loving someone means letting them go and looking at a situation and saying "If they can come back later and we can have something meaningful, so be it" without looking over your shoulder and waiting. Sometimes, loving someone means loving yourself enough to honor the good memories you have without soiling them in an attempt to resurrect something that may not be resurrectable at this point in time...or ever.
With that said, sometimes I think when you're looking in one direction, you don't take into account that, if you adjust your perspective, you can see something completely different. I was looking for an astrological sign, and maybe I found one. It just wasn't the one I thought I was looking for.
I'm rambling. Again.
I was sitting at home with no net last night and decided I needed to watch a movie to pass the time. Given my current mindset, I wanted something with as little "romantic" anything as possible. So I settled upon "Interview With The Vampire."
I'm fairly sure I'm one of the few people in the world who will "like" something and then question why I have an interest or infatuation with it. I've always had an interest in vampires and the whole vampire myth and lore. And when I started thinking about it, I realized it wasn't because of the whole supernatural thing or the gothic angle...it's because the concept of a vampire means life eternal and the struggle to find, if not love, then maybe simply a companion for the journey. In the movie, Armand mentions that most don't have the stamina to go through life endlessly; they end up killing themselves. I couldn't help but think that a lot of people are in that same struggle. Day to day life, even with a cap of 70 something years, seems like an extremely long time.
I'm rambling.
In other news, while I'm somewhat depressed still, I think I'm mature enough to understand that sometimes, loving someone means letting them go and looking at a situation and saying "If they can come back later and we can have something meaningful, so be it" without looking over your shoulder and waiting. Sometimes, loving someone means loving yourself enough to honor the good memories you have without soiling them in an attempt to resurrect something that may not be resurrectable at this point in time...or ever.
With that said, sometimes I think when you're looking in one direction, you don't take into account that, if you adjust your perspective, you can see something completely different. I was looking for an astrological sign, and maybe I found one. It just wasn't the one I thought I was looking for.
I'm rambling. Again.