Can you really accept me for me?
Sometimes something is so obvious it is staring you right in the face. And sometimes, it just hurts too much to face it, so you turn away. And keep your back to it. And continue about your life.
And one of these days...it's going to tap you on the shoulder and say PSSSST HEY..REMEMBER ME?
Had one of those moments this weekend.
I remember all the reasons why I love him. And all the reasons why he is a wonderful person, and why we are perfect for each other.
Why can't I forget the one thing I don't approve of?
Why can't I let that go?
Why do I always have to make things worse?
Why can't I just love him for who he is, and stop trying to change him?
I do love him. I guess that is not the question. The question is, do I love him with all his faults as well? Did I just pretend it wasn't there because everything else in my life was going perfect?
I keep hearing flashbacks of our conversation last night...words that burned...words that spoke nothing but the truth...
"Can't you just accept me for who I am? My parents never did...can't you just accept me..?
"This has nothing to do with you. It has nothing to do with the way I feel about you. This is just about ME. Not YOU."
"I love you for who YOU are. All the things that you do. Can't you just do the same?"
"You knew this was going to come out sometime. This was going to come to a head sometime."
"I don't want you to change. I just want you to love me for me. Accept me. Love me."
"I do so much for you - I bend over BACKWARDS TWICE for you, and I'm so SICK of you not realizing that..."
I'm not sure why I was sobbing more....the fact that we were fighting, or the fact that the words he was saying were right.
Happy Anniversary Honey.
And one of these days...it's going to tap you on the shoulder and say PSSSST HEY..REMEMBER ME?
Had one of those moments this weekend.
I remember all the reasons why I love him. And all the reasons why he is a wonderful person, and why we are perfect for each other.
Why can't I forget the one thing I don't approve of?
Why can't I let that go?
Why do I always have to make things worse?
Why can't I just love him for who he is, and stop trying to change him?
I do love him. I guess that is not the question. The question is, do I love him with all his faults as well? Did I just pretend it wasn't there because everything else in my life was going perfect?
I keep hearing flashbacks of our conversation last night...words that burned...words that spoke nothing but the truth...
"Can't you just accept me for who I am? My parents never did...can't you just accept me..?
"This has nothing to do with you. It has nothing to do with the way I feel about you. This is just about ME. Not YOU."
"I love you for who YOU are. All the things that you do. Can't you just do the same?"
"You knew this was going to come out sometime. This was going to come to a head sometime."
"I don't want you to change. I just want you to love me for me. Accept me. Love me."
"I do so much for you - I bend over BACKWARDS TWICE for you, and I'm so SICK of you not realizing that..."
I'm not sure why I was sobbing more....the fact that we were fighting, or the fact that the words he was saying were right.
Happy Anniversary Honey.