OK so i broke my promise but i need to vent
OK, so I met this totally amazing guy at college. First time i met him i just thought he was cute. Now I've actually got to know him, i think hes like the hottest thing ever. Like ok so i probly wouldn't pick him over Ville Valo or Bam but hes close. He's kinda goth. an he looks a bit vampy, which is oh so fucking hot. Which is weird for me coz i dont ususally go for guys like that. aand he's skinny which is also outside my ususal type cast. But he's hot. Hes soooo funny, he has like the exact same sick sense of humour as me, he likes the same bands as me. He prefers Sabbath with Ozzy and hates it post! OMG, hes just fab. I'm not naming names coz he might read this. But omg i would so bone him. *sings the song,does the dance*. One VERY big problem. he has a girlfriend!! hes totally in love with said girlfriend. Ive never seen or met her, but i dislike her insensly and continuously have murderous thoughts about her. All i know is that shes blonde. I bet shes thin aswell. therefore i wouldnt stand a chance in hell anyway but like arrrgh!!!! Man im like totally smitten. When he smokes hes soo hot. And when hes drawing hes just argh so fucking sexy. he has these amazing blue eyes that have like flecks of grey around the outside, making em look icy, but not in a mean way, just cool. *looks at how much ive typed* ok sounding a lil obsessive but i spend like at least an hour a day with this guy, and i notice lil things like that. oh my fucking god, hes just awesome. HMM i feel better now, well not really coz i no i can never have him but you know a girl can dream. Wanna hear something really weird. When i was making out with this other guy last week, when i closed my eyes and imagined it was the hottie from college.. HEHEHE thats like soooooo aweful i know. It's not like i dont like the guy i was making out with, but with me n him its purly physical, i cant let it be anymore coz it once was before and he hurt me sooooooooooooooooooooooooo baaad. Poor aliye had to put up with me on the fone crying to her. Wait no, i do not cry. ok im lying but i can fake being tough. haha. Argh goona stare at my photos of the hottie and dream and fantasise....rock out...