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So, if you were at Austin Java tonight on the front patio, and saw the girl lying on the ground sleeping... that was me.
One minute, I was fine. Eating dinner with M, drinking a couple glasses of wine. We were about to start studying our GRE vocab flashcards (no... really).
The next, I broke out in a cold sweat and felt HORRIBLE. It's happened before, and honestly, it's the worst feeling ever. It feels like you're about to die.
I told M I didn't feel well, and asked her to bring me some orange juice (this has worked before). She hurried off, and I felt my head lolling forward. I remember willing myself to keep my head up, so people wouldn't notice.
Then I was on the ground, on my belly, left cheek resting peacefully on tile. I was dreaming, I remember how nice it was to sleep. Then I heard something and three men were standing over me. One said, "Are you okay?" My head and neck hurt. Apparently, I hit my head when I went down.
M came back (she was only gone a couple minutes), and was like WHAT. They called the ambulance. They took my blood pressure, blood sugar, etc. Everything checked out fine.
Except there's something wrong with me, I guess. This has happened about 6 times in the past 10 years- not always complete fainting, but almost.
I'm scared I have some sort of heart condition. Or it could be my brain. Or it could be just a really annoying thing my body does for no fucking reason. I'm scared and worried in general. My dad's a cardiologist, so that's nice. I've been ordered to go to a doctor tomorrow.
But it's still not fun and really embarassing to faint in public. And my head and neck hurt. And I still didn't get to study for the GRE tonight. AND we had to leave an almost full bottle of wine! ARGH.
One minute, I was fine. Eating dinner with M, drinking a couple glasses of wine. We were about to start studying our GRE vocab flashcards (no... really).
The next, I broke out in a cold sweat and felt HORRIBLE. It's happened before, and honestly, it's the worst feeling ever. It feels like you're about to die.
I told M I didn't feel well, and asked her to bring me some orange juice (this has worked before). She hurried off, and I felt my head lolling forward. I remember willing myself to keep my head up, so people wouldn't notice.
Then I was on the ground, on my belly, left cheek resting peacefully on tile. I was dreaming, I remember how nice it was to sleep. Then I heard something and three men were standing over me. One said, "Are you okay?" My head and neck hurt. Apparently, I hit my head when I went down.
M came back (she was only gone a couple minutes), and was like WHAT. They called the ambulance. They took my blood pressure, blood sugar, etc. Everything checked out fine.
Except there's something wrong with me, I guess. This has happened about 6 times in the past 10 years- not always complete fainting, but almost.
I'm scared I have some sort of heart condition. Or it could be my brain. Or it could be just a really annoying thing my body does for no fucking reason. I'm scared and worried in general. My dad's a cardiologist, so that's nice. I've been ordered to go to a doctor tomorrow.
But it's still not fun and really embarassing to faint in public. And my head and neck hurt. And I still didn't get to study for the GRE tonight. AND we had to leave an almost full bottle of wine! ARGH.