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They say that when you are in college, you experiance the best years of your life and make friends that will last you the rest of your life.
I must be the exception to this statement.
I'm stressed out. I am not doing well this semester. I'm really worried about money because my job only gives me 4-6 hours a week and no one will hire me here. Both of my credit bills are going to be like $100 this month and I'm going to have to ask for my dad for money which really really sucks because I don't want to depend on them.
I feel socially defeated, and I know that sounds stupid, but I do. I wanted a dorm life, and I know you all would say that I didn't but I really really did. I was so looking forward to getting out of highschool and restarting with new people and new experiances. Instead, I got to spend another two years with my parents which gave me little freedom, no new experiances and no new people.
& now upon going to a bigger university, I'm still all alone. The highlight of my week is going grocery shopping, which is really sad. I come home, make myself food and sit alone, all night becuase I don't I can't seem to make any friends. And it's depressing. And I hate it & it makes me mad at myself.
I feel like I'm missing my college years. I don't do anything fun on the weekends because I don't have friends to do anything with. And none of my college friends make an effort to come see me, I always have to go to them. And that, really sucks.
I'm all colleged out. I feel like I've already graduated college and am already IN the real world. Which I think has something to do with dating someone older than you because I feel like I have to act older to not seem inadequate and immature. And in doing that, I'm loosing time.
I must be the exception to this statement.
I'm stressed out. I am not doing well this semester. I'm really worried about money because my job only gives me 4-6 hours a week and no one will hire me here. Both of my credit bills are going to be like $100 this month and I'm going to have to ask for my dad for money which really really sucks because I don't want to depend on them.
I feel socially defeated, and I know that sounds stupid, but I do. I wanted a dorm life, and I know you all would say that I didn't but I really really did. I was so looking forward to getting out of highschool and restarting with new people and new experiances. Instead, I got to spend another two years with my parents which gave me little freedom, no new experiances and no new people.
& now upon going to a bigger university, I'm still all alone. The highlight of my week is going grocery shopping, which is really sad. I come home, make myself food and sit alone, all night becuase I don't I can't seem to make any friends. And it's depressing. And I hate it & it makes me mad at myself.
I feel like I'm missing my college years. I don't do anything fun on the weekends because I don't have friends to do anything with. And none of my college friends make an effort to come see me, I always have to go to them. And that, really sucks.
I'm all colleged out. I feel like I've already graduated college and am already IN the real world. Which I think has something to do with dating someone older than you because I feel like I have to act older to not seem inadequate and immature. And in doing that, I'm loosing time.