me to the night
it seems like life has just rushed by in the past few years and i've hardly made an effort to record my thoughts. i'm experiencing an aspect of family i've never experienced before. it's been great hanging out with myles's cousins and aunts and uncles. i enjoy listening to the banter between relatives even when i can't understand what they're saying in cantonese. i find that i like listening - even if i can't understand what they're saying because i have a strange notion that perhaps if i strain my ears enough i'll miraculously be able to understand them somehow. anyway, it's been nice having the standard family dinners and potlucks and bubbletea afterwards. after spending my whole life not having aunties or uncles or cousins around, i feel like i am being supremely spoiled and adopted by myles's extended family.
another wonderful relationship that i've seen flourish lately is my relationship with hh (x2). it's great having "older sisters." i'm not that close to them but it's comforting knowing that they practically consider me family. they take care of me in small and practical ways which i appreciate immensely. they're also really great role models to me. holly and harmony's significant others are also great people who encourage me to walk closer to Christ - even though it's in a totally indirect way. in terms of a dating relationship, holly and pete are such a great example to me and i really respect and look up to them.
i am supremely blessed. the Lord has given and the Lord has taken away. in church we talked about suffering with specific reference to job. it was an interesting reminder that satan lies to us and tells us that God doesn't love us (the exact same lie he tells eve in the garden of eden when he's tempting her with the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil). satan clues in on this fundamental human mentality of "what's in it for me?" basically, satan and God are talking and God states that "there is no one else on the earth like job." God delights in job because he is righteous. satan then challenges God and disagrees saying that job is only in it for the blessings God is giving him - job's money, his family, his health. satan challenges God and says that if those blessings were taken away from him, job would curse God. God allows satan to destroy/harm his blessings. first his herds are stolen, then job's health fades, and finally job's children die. job grieves but he acknowledges that everything he had came from God in the first place so if God wants to take it away, He could. job worships God in the midst of suffering. this really reminds me of God's goodness. satan is the one lying to us and telling us that God is not good and that he doesn't love us and have our best interest at heart.
i am so thankful for the life that Jesus has given me. i hope that i can continue to grow.
i look forward to future family dinners. it's wonderful to experience the family life i've always dreamed of. God is so good to me and i don't deserve it at all. better sleep. good night!
another wonderful relationship that i've seen flourish lately is my relationship with hh (x2). it's great having "older sisters." i'm not that close to them but it's comforting knowing that they practically consider me family. they take care of me in small and practical ways which i appreciate immensely. they're also really great role models to me. holly and harmony's significant others are also great people who encourage me to walk closer to Christ - even though it's in a totally indirect way. in terms of a dating relationship, holly and pete are such a great example to me and i really respect and look up to them.
i am supremely blessed. the Lord has given and the Lord has taken away. in church we talked about suffering with specific reference to job. it was an interesting reminder that satan lies to us and tells us that God doesn't love us (the exact same lie he tells eve in the garden of eden when he's tempting her with the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil). satan clues in on this fundamental human mentality of "what's in it for me?" basically, satan and God are talking and God states that "there is no one else on the earth like job." God delights in job because he is righteous. satan then challenges God and disagrees saying that job is only in it for the blessings God is giving him - job's money, his family, his health. satan challenges God and says that if those blessings were taken away from him, job would curse God. God allows satan to destroy/harm his blessings. first his herds are stolen, then job's health fades, and finally job's children die. job grieves but he acknowledges that everything he had came from God in the first place so if God wants to take it away, He could. job worships God in the midst of suffering. this really reminds me of God's goodness. satan is the one lying to us and telling us that God is not good and that he doesn't love us and have our best interest at heart.
i am so thankful for the life that Jesus has given me. i hope that i can continue to grow.
i look forward to future family dinners. it's wonderful to experience the family life i've always dreamed of. God is so good to me and i don't deserve it at all. better sleep. good night!