Confusion

[starserchr00]

Man i am so confused. And i have alot of homework to do. It seems like my life will never be normal. But when i think about "normal" i think of Cassi with straight a's and a car and money and an awesome relationship with God and friends. But thats not normal..thats best case scenario. And on top of homework, ive had a headache for the pst couple days and i've put off my homework until now. And my parents are soo pissy lately. My mom i think is going through a mental breakdown because she is so freaking emotional. She cries all the time and gets mad at everything. Sometimes she'll just start screaming and stompingher feet for no reason. One time she did it because my dad had to go to work and she wanted to talk to him. She has been going to doctors about it but it's like they arent listening. And my dad is always mad. Theres never been a time when he's not mad about something. Oh and this house is driving me and my mom crazy. It's so cold here and it's like my dad doesnt care. All he does is cope with it. The other day when i woke up it was 40 degrees in the house.....40 DEGREES!! how fricken crazy is that? And i have so much homework to do and they expect me to do everything around the house. and i cant do it all. But thats what my parents say too. We cant do it all. I just wanna run away to a nice family with a warm house. And i cant even drive yet. I've been 16 for 2 months and i dont even have a permit yet! thats makes me soo mad! its like i have no control over my life! What i really wanna do is go live with Mindy. LAtely she's been the best friend i could ever have. And i have other best friends too but all of them are different. All i can say is that mindy has got to be the best person on the face of this planet. And she tells me that shes not because shes not perfect, but no one is. And maybe its hard to take a compliment like that. i know it would be for me. But i wish that i was an adult....where i could go hang out with her anytime i wanted to and i could do whatever i wanted. And my parents keep warning me about bills and responsibilities that go along with being an adult but you know what? I'm not gonna quit college half a semester into it.
I'm gonna go to college get a dgree or masters or whatever I want and go get a nice house and spend my life in happy warmth. I'm going to succeed, not just give up and work at walmart. So if anyone has a solution to my life PLEASE PLEASE tell me. For now im gonna put it in God's hands because thats all i can do. well i have a bunch of homework to do and since im still a loser 16 yr old i had better go do it because "the people older and smarter than me" will get on my case if i dont. talk to you later. Bye
~Cassi