"Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good." - romans 12:9
boldness: 1 a : fearless before danger, standing out prominently.
i truly miss how bold i used to be. just a few years ago - i was much more bold regarding my beliefs, my passions, holding firm to what i believe, standing up for whats worth fighting for. i used to tell everyone about Jesus, i used to tell everyone about how abortion is not just a political issue, but an issue of life and death. i used to associate myself with Christ and things that were of Him. i used to proudly wear my pro-life t-shirts and throw pro-life shows and make speeches. i used to sing in church and proclaim my faith to every person that walked by. i used to be called 'jesus freak' in high school - and you know what - i prefer that title than being 'cool' or 'scene' or whatever other title there is out there.
lately, i've started coming back around to the boldness i once held so close to my heart. i've started to stand up for my beliefs, i've started digging into the Word of God because i want to and not because 'its expected' of me. but i'm still lacking in that boldness. i need to proclaim my beliefs. i need to tell people. i need to shine Jesus love from every aspect of my life. i am moving to hong kong soon and if i want to show people the love of Christ, the things the Lord finds good and worth fighting for, the things Christ died for - i need to be living the life and truly living the life - not just floating along the waves.
believe it or not, i could debate anyone about abortion and win the topic from several different sides - from the medical side, the religious side, the political side, and from the 'its a choice' side. i can debate and win with facts and proofs and i could hopefully even help someone make a better informed decision to not have an abortion. believe it or not - this is something that i'm very very much passionate about - but i have developed this wierd bubble - a bubble that sucks out my boldness. i miss being apart of the pro-life movement. i miss being apart of saving the lives of innocent unborn children. every day over 4,400 unborn children die. i have been a voice for the voiceless since i first learned what abortion was back when clinton was president the first time - in elementary school.
the 34th anniversary of roe vs. wade was this past monday - and you know what i was doing - working. i wasn't out in san diego or san francisco, or dc participating in on the march for life. granted, i can't take days off of work so i couldn't be there - but if i had tried, prayed more about it - and if God really wanted me there - He would have provided a way. but no, i gave into the feeling of 'i can't take time off of work, so meh.' if i had made it a point to tell them at work that i had something very important to be apart of, *sigh* well, no use in beating myself up over it. its just another sign that i need to be, again, more bold.
i laugh at things i shouldn't laugh at. i support things i shouldn't support. i keep my mouth shut when i should open it and open it when i should keep it shut. i act like the world when i should be acting walking in the Spirit. boldness - if i had more boldness. i need to do what romans 12:9 says - "Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good." if i truly love the Lord i need to show it with my actions. if i truly love people, i need to show it with my actions. if i truly want to be that voice for the voiceless, i need to do so with my actions. i can't keep writing these blogs about what God is showing me in my time with Him, i need to start acting out what He is showing me.
i need to find that happy medium where i was strong in my beliefs but not legalistic. i need to get back to where i was when if you told me that Jesus did not exist i'd stop what i was doing to show you that unfortunately you were incorrect but fortunately, i can show you the truth. i need to get back to wearing my pro-life shirts, to throwing pro-life shows, to being bold. i need to get back to going to prayer vigils and peaceful/prayerful protests at abortion mills and offer out prayerful counsel to all the people that go in there. i need to stand up for modesty, a women of chastity, a women of Christ.
this is the first step. coming out and saying - Lord, i have fallen short of your glory, of your love and mercy and honor. i have fallen short and have lost so much of the boldness i once had. my God, Abba Father, - please open my heart, give me that boldness, let nothing but you be uttered from my lips, let me not look like the world but let me show you off to those in this world by my actions. help me retain the knowledge i once had - the scripture i once memorized, the facts i once knew backwards and forwards. let me be bold in telling people what they need to hear - but telling them in a way that they will respond. God - use me. i no longer want to be complacent or fake. show me what i need to in order to break this complacency and let me live like your child is supposed to live.
please pray for:
that i will be more bold for Christ - for whom i live for.
that i will be more diligent in reading the Word.
i need to sell my car.
i need to pay off my credit cards.
finish planning wedding and getting invites out.
that everything will go smoothly with the wedding and moving and everything like that.
that God will show me what he wants me to do regarding certain things in my life.
that God will show me how my pro-lific heart will fit into Hong Kong.
that bud and i will get the money to get our certification for TESOL.
for the hearts and souls in Hong Kong and all over the world - for everyone that needs jesus.
asflkjsdf so much to pray for. i'm going to go do that and go to sleep. Lord help me get up tomorrow in time for work. amen.
love you all and if you read all of this, i'm impressed and you deserve a hug.
~ christin joy.
i truly miss how bold i used to be. just a few years ago - i was much more bold regarding my beliefs, my passions, holding firm to what i believe, standing up for whats worth fighting for. i used to tell everyone about Jesus, i used to tell everyone about how abortion is not just a political issue, but an issue of life and death. i used to associate myself with Christ and things that were of Him. i used to proudly wear my pro-life t-shirts and throw pro-life shows and make speeches. i used to sing in church and proclaim my faith to every person that walked by. i used to be called 'jesus freak' in high school - and you know what - i prefer that title than being 'cool' or 'scene' or whatever other title there is out there.
lately, i've started coming back around to the boldness i once held so close to my heart. i've started to stand up for my beliefs, i've started digging into the Word of God because i want to and not because 'its expected' of me. but i'm still lacking in that boldness. i need to proclaim my beliefs. i need to tell people. i need to shine Jesus love from every aspect of my life. i am moving to hong kong soon and if i want to show people the love of Christ, the things the Lord finds good and worth fighting for, the things Christ died for - i need to be living the life and truly living the life - not just floating along the waves.
believe it or not, i could debate anyone about abortion and win the topic from several different sides - from the medical side, the religious side, the political side, and from the 'its a choice' side. i can debate and win with facts and proofs and i could hopefully even help someone make a better informed decision to not have an abortion. believe it or not - this is something that i'm very very much passionate about - but i have developed this wierd bubble - a bubble that sucks out my boldness. i miss being apart of the pro-life movement. i miss being apart of saving the lives of innocent unborn children. every day over 4,400 unborn children die. i have been a voice for the voiceless since i first learned what abortion was back when clinton was president the first time - in elementary school.
the 34th anniversary of roe vs. wade was this past monday - and you know what i was doing - working. i wasn't out in san diego or san francisco, or dc participating in on the march for life. granted, i can't take days off of work so i couldn't be there - but if i had tried, prayed more about it - and if God really wanted me there - He would have provided a way. but no, i gave into the feeling of 'i can't take time off of work, so meh.' if i had made it a point to tell them at work that i had something very important to be apart of, *sigh* well, no use in beating myself up over it. its just another sign that i need to be, again, more bold.
i laugh at things i shouldn't laugh at. i support things i shouldn't support. i keep my mouth shut when i should open it and open it when i should keep it shut. i act like the world when i should be acting walking in the Spirit. boldness - if i had more boldness. i need to do what romans 12:9 says - "Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good." if i truly love the Lord i need to show it with my actions. if i truly love people, i need to show it with my actions. if i truly want to be that voice for the voiceless, i need to do so with my actions. i can't keep writing these blogs about what God is showing me in my time with Him, i need to start acting out what He is showing me.
i need to find that happy medium where i was strong in my beliefs but not legalistic. i need to get back to where i was when if you told me that Jesus did not exist i'd stop what i was doing to show you that unfortunately you were incorrect but fortunately, i can show you the truth. i need to get back to wearing my pro-life shirts, to throwing pro-life shows, to being bold. i need to get back to going to prayer vigils and peaceful/prayerful protests at abortion mills and offer out prayerful counsel to all the people that go in there. i need to stand up for modesty, a women of chastity, a women of Christ.
this is the first step. coming out and saying - Lord, i have fallen short of your glory, of your love and mercy and honor. i have fallen short and have lost so much of the boldness i once had. my God, Abba Father, - please open my heart, give me that boldness, let nothing but you be uttered from my lips, let me not look like the world but let me show you off to those in this world by my actions. help me retain the knowledge i once had - the scripture i once memorized, the facts i once knew backwards and forwards. let me be bold in telling people what they need to hear - but telling them in a way that they will respond. God - use me. i no longer want to be complacent or fake. show me what i need to in order to break this complacency and let me live like your child is supposed to live.
please pray for:
that i will be more bold for Christ - for whom i live for.
that i will be more diligent in reading the Word.
i need to sell my car.
i need to pay off my credit cards.
finish planning wedding and getting invites out.
that everything will go smoothly with the wedding and moving and everything like that.
that God will show me what he wants me to do regarding certain things in my life.
that God will show me how my pro-lific heart will fit into Hong Kong.
that bud and i will get the money to get our certification for TESOL.
for the hearts and souls in Hong Kong and all over the world - for everyone that needs jesus.
asflkjsdf so much to pray for. i'm going to go do that and go to sleep. Lord help me get up tomorrow in time for work. amen.
love you all and if you read all of this, i'm impressed and you deserve a hug.
~ christin joy.