i guess i shall update this thing...
i had a good weekend. well, i should say week. cos i saw jon the entire week and it felt really great. i'm sad tho cos i know it's possible i may not see him until break, but that's if i get hired at wherever i applied at. so yeah i hope him and i don't start to bicker. i don't think we will. :)
but yeah thanksgiving was great. i was at his house. the food was effing great!! i never had such good food before. seriously, it was great.
i also saw 8 mile, not that day but during the week sometime. that was really good!
i'm not looking forward to christmas this year. i guess it's cos it's just me and my mom. and every year it just seems pointless cos it's not like we're a loving family. we just do our own thing. sort of like we're roomates that rarely speak. especially since i have to buy my own food now. but yeah i don't see it getting any better. at least until i have my own family. and just like every year my mom "doesn't have any money" so i won't be getting much. i know christmas isn't about me getting presents but i mean, it's nice to actually get something from my mom cos she never buys me anything. i just hate it cos i can't have a nice, normal christmas like everyone else. i'll just get like one or two things. i already know what she's getting me. a white down comforter, guitar tuner and guitar stand. i asked for more. but i know that's all she's going to get me. oh well, whatever.
lima, pickles and my brother left friday.
it was really sad. i mean, i didn't cry. but now the house is like so empty and silent. it just seems pointless to be here. and i really miss lima so much!! i'm just sad cos i don't get to see him grow up. i mean, granted they only have to be there for 10 months. but i want to see him take his first step, and i want him to be able to understand me and to know who i am. i'm just scared that when i see him, he won't know me or remember me.
anyway, i still don't know if i'm going away to school next semester. i'm gonna call them tomorrow and find out about the housing and shit. it's pissing me off cos it's taking forever. and i have to wait to register for my classes and that's bull cos now i'm gonna get shitty classes. my mom's the one that told me i have to wait. somehow i don't think i do. i'll find out tomorrow tho.
well, i'm still bored, and still alone. so i guess i'm gonna go.
but yeah thanksgiving was great. i was at his house. the food was effing great!! i never had such good food before. seriously, it was great.
i also saw 8 mile, not that day but during the week sometime. that was really good!
i'm not looking forward to christmas this year. i guess it's cos it's just me and my mom. and every year it just seems pointless cos it's not like we're a loving family. we just do our own thing. sort of like we're roomates that rarely speak. especially since i have to buy my own food now. but yeah i don't see it getting any better. at least until i have my own family. and just like every year my mom "doesn't have any money" so i won't be getting much. i know christmas isn't about me getting presents but i mean, it's nice to actually get something from my mom cos she never buys me anything. i just hate it cos i can't have a nice, normal christmas like everyone else. i'll just get like one or two things. i already know what she's getting me. a white down comforter, guitar tuner and guitar stand. i asked for more. but i know that's all she's going to get me. oh well, whatever.
lima, pickles and my brother left friday.
it was really sad. i mean, i didn't cry. but now the house is like so empty and silent. it just seems pointless to be here. and i really miss lima so much!! i'm just sad cos i don't get to see him grow up. i mean, granted they only have to be there for 10 months. but i want to see him take his first step, and i want him to be able to understand me and to know who i am. i'm just scared that when i see him, he won't know me or remember me.
anyway, i still don't know if i'm going away to school next semester. i'm gonna call them tomorrow and find out about the housing and shit. it's pissing me off cos it's taking forever. and i have to wait to register for my classes and that's bull cos now i'm gonna get shitty classes. my mom's the one that told me i have to wait. somehow i don't think i do. i'll find out tomorrow tho.
well, i'm still bored, and still alone. so i guess i'm gonna go.