A much needed and long awaited update.
This entry is in no certain order or anything.
I’ve been meaning to update this thing so many times but just haven’t gotten around to it. Things lately have been going I don’t know where but they have.
Non-Family Relations
Justin and I are now together. We are a lot alike in some ways. Ashleigh thinks he’s going to be good for me and I do too. I need someone to adore me and be there for me. Someone I can depend on no matter yanno. Someone who is as goofy and actually gets me. I think Justin is that. He’s already proved that in small ways. I’m always saying actions speak louder then words. I’m hoping this turns out to be different from the rest. I say that all the time but this time it’s different. I’m actually going to work for it. I’m so sick and tired of getting burned. On Dec 30, 04 we went to the Queen Mary. I love that place even though the First Class swimming pool gives me the creeps. The Boiler rooms give me the creeps too. Anyway, I’d like to be married there. I kind of want to spend the night there but I’m too much of a chicken. After that, we went Universal City Walk and were going to eat at the Hard Rock Cafe but it was closed for a private event. Saw the Michigan State Band practice for the Rose Bowl and then that night we went and picked up his friend Eric and went to the Casino. My first time to the Casino. I have no luck but Justin sure does lol. Then for New Years (which was Justin’s 21 birthday) I got drunk for the first time. It was…fun? I don’t know. I threw up in his bathroom, that wasn’t fun. Justin was going to hold my hair and I made him leave. Last night we went to the hookah bar, I somehow managed to knock the hookah over, the coals came flying on the couch and then it caught on fire, so to get the coals off brushed them off with my hand and now I have a blister on my finger from it. Left two big holes in the couch but oh well, I’m not the first to do it and certainly won’t be the last.
Family Relations
Christmas was a freaking joke this year. My dad was sleeping on the living room floor for the most part of the day. In one of his usual pill induced frame of minds; you know; can’t walk, falling everywhere, sleeping everywhere. He managed to burn a hole in his bedroom carpet, set himself on fire and fall out of bed a few times. He has been that way since around Thanksgiving until like the day after New Years. New Years was fucking great too! My dad actually broke a plate (on accident) of my mom’s that her mother had made and my mom lost it. I mean lost it. I had never seen my mom like that before. She was/is so sick and tired of his crap; she told me next time we are leaving for sure but I’ve heard this so many times before. So yeah- she took my dad around the neck and shook him several times, just screaming all sorts of stuff at him. I’d pull her off and she’d go back at him. She’s strong! I could hardly hold her back. But it seriously took me about 5 minutes to get her pulled away from him. It was bad. I finally had to just let her go at him while I went and got the neighbor to help me because I knew she could get my mom to calm down. She had to help me hold my mom back. It was really scary because I’d never ever seen her like that before. Never! It was like someone else just jumped in my mom’s body. It wasn’t my mom. I was so scared he was going to call the police and my mom would go to jail for domestic violence; but he didn’t. He had marks around his neck but he didn’t do it. He didn’t hit her back either, which surprised the hell out of me. He just kind of tried to keep from falling as she shook him. I think he was more in shock of how my mom was behaving then anything. But yeah. He finally ran out of pills and is all right until the prescription is available to be filled again.
Random stuff
The doctor’s office called today to tell me the test results from the surgery. No cancer for sure. But I go back Feb 10th for a check up. He wants to keep an eye on my lymph nodes because they have no explanation for why it swelled up.
I got Sims 2 and it’s freaking awesome. I got a Kurt Cobain shirt and it’s awesome. Got some guitar earring to wear with it. I going to buy some airwalks lol. I got Justin stuff for his bathroom for Christmas and his birthday. I hate rain. I want Justin’s car. I need a car so bad.
I’ve been meaning to update this thing so many times but just haven’t gotten around to it. Things lately have been going I don’t know where but they have.
Non-Family Relations
Justin and I are now together. We are a lot alike in some ways. Ashleigh thinks he’s going to be good for me and I do too. I need someone to adore me and be there for me. Someone I can depend on no matter yanno. Someone who is as goofy and actually gets me. I think Justin is that. He’s already proved that in small ways. I’m always saying actions speak louder then words. I’m hoping this turns out to be different from the rest. I say that all the time but this time it’s different. I’m actually going to work for it. I’m so sick and tired of getting burned. On Dec 30, 04 we went to the Queen Mary. I love that place even though the First Class swimming pool gives me the creeps. The Boiler rooms give me the creeps too. Anyway, I’d like to be married there. I kind of want to spend the night there but I’m too much of a chicken. After that, we went Universal City Walk and were going to eat at the Hard Rock Cafe but it was closed for a private event. Saw the Michigan State Band practice for the Rose Bowl and then that night we went and picked up his friend Eric and went to the Casino. My first time to the Casino. I have no luck but Justin sure does lol. Then for New Years (which was Justin’s 21 birthday) I got drunk for the first time. It was…fun? I don’t know. I threw up in his bathroom, that wasn’t fun. Justin was going to hold my hair and I made him leave. Last night we went to the hookah bar, I somehow managed to knock the hookah over, the coals came flying on the couch and then it caught on fire, so to get the coals off brushed them off with my hand and now I have a blister on my finger from it. Left two big holes in the couch but oh well, I’m not the first to do it and certainly won’t be the last.
Family Relations
Christmas was a freaking joke this year. My dad was sleeping on the living room floor for the most part of the day. In one of his usual pill induced frame of minds; you know; can’t walk, falling everywhere, sleeping everywhere. He managed to burn a hole in his bedroom carpet, set himself on fire and fall out of bed a few times. He has been that way since around Thanksgiving until like the day after New Years. New Years was fucking great too! My dad actually broke a plate (on accident) of my mom’s that her mother had made and my mom lost it. I mean lost it. I had never seen my mom like that before. She was/is so sick and tired of his crap; she told me next time we are leaving for sure but I’ve heard this so many times before. So yeah- she took my dad around the neck and shook him several times, just screaming all sorts of stuff at him. I’d pull her off and she’d go back at him. She’s strong! I could hardly hold her back. But it seriously took me about 5 minutes to get her pulled away from him. It was bad. I finally had to just let her go at him while I went and got the neighbor to help me because I knew she could get my mom to calm down. She had to help me hold my mom back. It was really scary because I’d never ever seen her like that before. Never! It was like someone else just jumped in my mom’s body. It wasn’t my mom. I was so scared he was going to call the police and my mom would go to jail for domestic violence; but he didn’t. He had marks around his neck but he didn’t do it. He didn’t hit her back either, which surprised the hell out of me. He just kind of tried to keep from falling as she shook him. I think he was more in shock of how my mom was behaving then anything. But yeah. He finally ran out of pills and is all right until the prescription is available to be filled again.
Random stuff
The doctor’s office called today to tell me the test results from the surgery. No cancer for sure. But I go back Feb 10th for a check up. He wants to keep an eye on my lymph nodes because they have no explanation for why it swelled up.
I got Sims 2 and it’s freaking awesome. I got a Kurt Cobain shirt and it’s awesome. Got some guitar earring to wear with it. I going to buy some airwalks lol. I got Justin stuff for his bathroom for Christmas and his birthday. I hate rain. I want Justin’s car. I need a car so bad.