figure out which one is for you! (tl,dr)
I'm laying everything out on the table, because I'm tired of this game. I'm tired of tiptoeing around everyone's feeeeeelings. I'm tired of what feels like not having a posse and having fucking separate hang out schedules. and not being there for one of my best friends when I should have seen both sides and I should have been more understanding. I sucked out on this whole thing, but I thought that everyone would end up better off one way or another, and it doesn't seem that it's going to head in that direction.
if you have something to say, you should say it. you should tell everyone so you don't look like a shady piece of shit, which, I hate to say, is what you look like right now and you know you're one of my best friends. you were there for me when it felt like no one else was.
you deserve better. there's nothing else I can say. it kills me to know that you might have to go through this again. it really does. and I'm sorry I haven't been there for you.
you need time for yourself. more than a month. more than two months. I know you seem to think you have your things figured out, but I also think you could do better.
I am sorry. I have dealt with this drama shit for the past two months and quite frankly I'm sick of it. I'm sick of thinking everything will finally settle and then things uprise. and when it comes down to it, things are almost the same as before. I have cleaned up someone's messes. two of them. and while I was just trying to be the best friend that I could, it put me, not only me but lou and other people that we consider our friends as well in a really awkward position. and i know everyone was in a "rut" and that things were just not the same and blah blah blah. it's ridiculous. it's ridiculous how one can act and someone can just say "oh well he was upset." it just goes to show one's character, that's how I feel, and anyone can feel free to back me up on that or challenge me on it. I dare you.
also, it's not healthy to keep everything bottled up. it's not good to pretend that things didn't happen or to not be open with other about things that happened. it's not fair to the person you're keeping in the dark, it's not fair to your other friends. that also shows lack of character. I know I can't sit here and judge everyone because I don't know what the hell is going on in everyone's heads. it's unfair of me to point fingers and assume the worst of someone, but if something is going on and you feel you can't just tell YOUR FRIENDS what's going on, than that makes me feel like you don't value your friendships and that you think something absolutely horrible will happen if you inform them of what is going on. also, you can think you have things figured out but you might not. another view might be helpful in determining your future. and this upsets me if this will be the end of the awesome times we had together, at least for awhile.
Between Two Ferns with Zach Galifianakis on FunnyOrDie.com
zach galifianakis is a good way to end anything. probably. also I am cold and I'm either going to play zelda or watch a movie or something cheesy. besides listening to this song over and over and over again. also, mike perry thinks he is being attacked by a demon in the middle of the night. AMAZING.
if you have something to say, you should say it. you should tell everyone so you don't look like a shady piece of shit, which, I hate to say, is what you look like right now and you know you're one of my best friends. you were there for me when it felt like no one else was.
you deserve better. there's nothing else I can say. it kills me to know that you might have to go through this again. it really does. and I'm sorry I haven't been there for you.
you need time for yourself. more than a month. more than two months. I know you seem to think you have your things figured out, but I also think you could do better.
I am sorry. I have dealt with this drama shit for the past two months and quite frankly I'm sick of it. I'm sick of thinking everything will finally settle and then things uprise. and when it comes down to it, things are almost the same as before. I have cleaned up someone's messes. two of them. and while I was just trying to be the best friend that I could, it put me, not only me but lou and other people that we consider our friends as well in a really awkward position. and i know everyone was in a "rut" and that things were just not the same and blah blah blah. it's ridiculous. it's ridiculous how one can act and someone can just say "oh well he was upset." it just goes to show one's character, that's how I feel, and anyone can feel free to back me up on that or challenge me on it. I dare you.
also, it's not healthy to keep everything bottled up. it's not good to pretend that things didn't happen or to not be open with other about things that happened. it's not fair to the person you're keeping in the dark, it's not fair to your other friends. that also shows lack of character. I know I can't sit here and judge everyone because I don't know what the hell is going on in everyone's heads. it's unfair of me to point fingers and assume the worst of someone, but if something is going on and you feel you can't just tell YOUR FRIENDS what's going on, than that makes me feel like you don't value your friendships and that you think something absolutely horrible will happen if you inform them of what is going on. also, you can think you have things figured out but you might not. another view might be helpful in determining your future. and this upsets me if this will be the end of the awesome times we had together, at least for awhile.
Between Two Ferns with Zach Galifianakis on FunnyOrDie.com
zach galifianakis is a good way to end anything. probably. also I am cold and I'm either going to play zelda or watch a movie or something cheesy. besides listening to this song over and over and over again. also, mike perry thinks he is being attacked by a demon in the middle of the night. AMAZING.