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i'm starting to think..
that if things didn't get complicated in life.
the world wouldn't be worth it.
the highs can only be high as possible
if the lows are as low as possible
there has to be a balance.
ying and yang. good and evil.
i'm not saying the world is bipolar but sometimes..
i don't know. i can't put my thoughts into words right now.
and with all that said, i still don't know what to do about jordan.
as soon as we became just friends we got comfortable with each other again
almost as if the label was making us feel awkward.
i think that was my fault. we felt awkward around each other because i was confused
and as soon as we became just friends i was comfortable around him
and he felt it. and the "more than friends" feeling sparked right back up again.
i guess we'll just see what happens.
i am pretty happy about one thing though...
last night before bed sean and jordan had this little speech that they gave me.
like they had planned it all out earlier. a little ceremony of sorts.
they told me that i was a part of their tight knit group. i had officially earned my spot.
that they expected me to be with them everyday unless i had a really good reason.
that i wasn't like any other girl they've hung out with.
that the first day i hung out with them they knew right away i fit right in.
that they're 100% positive about the 4 of us getting a house in capitol hill.
they feel like i've always been a part of the group. they can be themselves around me
and i bring out the fun in them.
it meant more to me than i could ever describe.
i've always had trouble fitting in and feeling a part of a group.
with them it was instant though. they love me for weird, dorky crazy me.
i love them so so so so much.
that if things didn't get complicated in life.
the world wouldn't be worth it.
the highs can only be high as possible
if the lows are as low as possible
there has to be a balance.
ying and yang. good and evil.
i'm not saying the world is bipolar but sometimes..
i don't know. i can't put my thoughts into words right now.
and with all that said, i still don't know what to do about jordan.
as soon as we became just friends we got comfortable with each other again
almost as if the label was making us feel awkward.
i think that was my fault. we felt awkward around each other because i was confused
and as soon as we became just friends i was comfortable around him
and he felt it. and the "more than friends" feeling sparked right back up again.
i guess we'll just see what happens.
i am pretty happy about one thing though...
last night before bed sean and jordan had this little speech that they gave me.
like they had planned it all out earlier. a little ceremony of sorts.
they told me that i was a part of their tight knit group. i had officially earned my spot.
that they expected me to be with them everyday unless i had a really good reason.
that i wasn't like any other girl they've hung out with.
that the first day i hung out with them they knew right away i fit right in.
that they're 100% positive about the 4 of us getting a house in capitol hill.
they feel like i've always been a part of the group. they can be themselves around me
and i bring out the fun in them.
it meant more to me than i could ever describe.
i've always had trouble fitting in and feeling a part of a group.
with them it was instant though. they love me for weird, dorky crazy me.
i love them so so so so much.