if you read ALL OF THIS... I'm impressed. but I also think you're crazy =)
in honor of a new user icon (haha, thanks natt!) and some random inspiration, I will update for the first time in...well.. a while. for the sake of organization (and not really knowing what to write about), I will update in specific categories in true connie-has-no-life style. yeah.. here goes.
school: so, lets tackle the most boring topic first. school has been pretty normal I suppose...2nd semester I dropped bio 3-4 since I wasnt planning to go to Catalina (which is cool, I might get to to go over there for a few days on an OA trip soon anyways..ill get back to that later), so I've been in journalism 1st period instead, with david, harry, kristy, yao, and michelle. its been interesting, we correct journalism 1-2 papers, or math papers, or watch a movie (or mostly just bum around). second period physics has remained relatively pointless academically except to talk bunches to harry and/or natt, eat junk, and finish up homework that I seem to never to actually do at home anymore (bad senior!). during break I like always stay in physics on the sofa and keep working on hw or take a 15 minute nap. haha, yes..I am a bum. third period AP english lit is cool, that class is interesting most of the time at least, lots of in class essays that I've actually done pretty well on. woot. 4th period is AP spanish with mr. sigala, o wise one of schurr high school. haha, I love that guy, so much to say, and so animated, so he's awful fun to watch too. plus we hardly do anything in that class, haha. fifth period is ECON with mr. barker...thats been fun. no real lectures, just the competition stuff all the time, its pretty sweet. i actually kind of like economics =x. 6th period is the ohhh so wonderful ART HISTORY. I love that class, always have, always will. its so mellow and interesting and yeaahh go art history. wow this must be boring, haha SORRY KIDS.
journalism/band/etc: copy editor stuff has been cool. I've grown pretty close with michelle, ill miss her a lot after graduation. still dont really feel like I fit in with everyone, but its still fun, and has been an awesome experience..only one more issue with the old staff! :( band has been pretty cool I guess? same old, except for all that suckie band drama, leaving lisa and I as the co-presidents. but that doesnt mean a lot at this time of the year. festival was cool, I had a solo and was kinda freaked out but it turned out fine. potluck is going to be really emotional, I can already tell. band's been a huuuuge part of my high school life, thats for sure. BASIC...still goin relatively strong with about 25 people every week, its gotten really lax though, blah. I still like it though. david and his shinnanigans. or however you would spell that.
college update: for a while I was really struggling between deciding..UCLA or Pomona? but after lots of thinking and comparing...despite the fact that they are both incredibly awesome, I just feel like I'm so much more of a Pomona girl. especially after visiting the campus on admissions day a few weeks ago..the classes were small, interactive...the dorms were spacious, the campus was beautiful, the food was awesome. yup, so Pomona! the thing I mentioned earlier about an OA trip (Orientation Adventure) is something that Pomona offers to all the incoming freshman (for free!)...where you can choose to like go to the mountains, or backpacking, or to catalina, or kayaking, or on a so-cal "experience" trip..haha..all kinds of things..where you get to meet like 10-15 other freshman, before classes even start. im looking forward to that a lot. though im terrified about college, im really anxious about it in a way. kinda feels like its time for the next stage in life already...need something. but yeah, scary nonetheless. I hope I meet some really awesome people. at least I have natt there (at harvey mudd) already! :D
APs: today I had my AP spanish test, which was more entertaining than anything else..it WAS long but it didnt seem like a big deal, I'm like 99% sure I passed it. I hope I got a 4, that would be really cool. haha. AP english lit on thursday, just wanna get that one over with...aiming for a 4 there too. and art history is next wednesday, which, oh geez, is going to require a LOT of studying this next week. I hope I do well....I'm pretty sure I'll pass, but I really hope with more than a 3! I'm officially declaring this a lame paragraph, by the way. moving on.
prom: so yeah, the "big night" was this past saturday. I had always planned to go, and for the longest thought that I'd go with rick (made sense) but after jake couldnt go, and lisa and natt both didnt have a date, it was like, we should just do something else. but... once rick was out of the picture (ah..ill get to that too), I kind of randomly decided I would rather go and not regret it, rather than sit home alone doing I dont know. pitying myself, haha. so, I talked to natt about it, she was down, so we both decided to go "alone together," which turned out pretty cool. I loved both of our dresses, and buying them together and everything was fun (yay for fish tacos!!! my recent food obsession :p). but prom well, was kind of a dud, I mean it wasnt too bad really, its cool to dress up and feel pretty for a while and take a million pictures and see everyone else, but it just didnt feel like prom. didnt dance too much..and everyone kept asking me where rick was. =\ so overall, could have been better, but could have been worse. I'm glad I went, at least. but yeah, whoosh, there went prom.
as the world of connie turns: well, he and I decided to break off the girlfriend/boyfriend thing about two weeks ago..with the intent of staying friends, and being there for each other. seemed to be a break up on good terms, even though I cried constantly for days, I had hope that things would be okay, soon. honestly, now I'm not so sure. we have not spoken a word to each other since, have no made eye contact...by his choice, he needs his space I guess..which has been really hard and frustrating but its come to the point where I'm kind of accepting the fact. I mean, what can I do? he wont come online or answer my emails, wont respond to my notes. I wish so much that I could be a friend to him right now, but unless he lets me back in, I really cant push anything. I just want him to be happy. so I guess I'll just have to wait, and continue to pray for him, and hopefully get the chance to remind him that I'm still here for him. I miss him a lot, but I'm getting by. I CAN live without him but..why would I want to? :( I don't. and as long as I can wait, as long as theres a chance that I can be a friend to him, I will be. so, here's to hoping.
haha, and im tired of writing now so heres to ending this entry. I'll try to get back into the swing of live journaling things. but a little encouragement (*coughCOMMENTScough*) wouldnt hurt at all ;)
take care all, hope you're not melting.
school: so, lets tackle the most boring topic first. school has been pretty normal I suppose...2nd semester I dropped bio 3-4 since I wasnt planning to go to Catalina (which is cool, I might get to to go over there for a few days on an OA trip soon anyways..ill get back to that later), so I've been in journalism 1st period instead, with david, harry, kristy, yao, and michelle. its been interesting, we correct journalism 1-2 papers, or math papers, or watch a movie (or mostly just bum around). second period physics has remained relatively pointless academically except to talk bunches to harry and/or natt, eat junk, and finish up homework that I seem to never to actually do at home anymore (bad senior!). during break I like always stay in physics on the sofa and keep working on hw or take a 15 minute nap. haha, yes..I am a bum. third period AP english lit is cool, that class is interesting most of the time at least, lots of in class essays that I've actually done pretty well on. woot. 4th period is AP spanish with mr. sigala, o wise one of schurr high school. haha, I love that guy, so much to say, and so animated, so he's awful fun to watch too. plus we hardly do anything in that class, haha. fifth period is ECON with mr. barker...thats been fun. no real lectures, just the competition stuff all the time, its pretty sweet. i actually kind of like economics =x. 6th period is the ohhh so wonderful ART HISTORY. I love that class, always have, always will. its so mellow and interesting and yeaahh go art history. wow this must be boring, haha SORRY KIDS.
journalism/band/etc: copy editor stuff has been cool. I've grown pretty close with michelle, ill miss her a lot after graduation. still dont really feel like I fit in with everyone, but its still fun, and has been an awesome experience..only one more issue with the old staff! :( band has been pretty cool I guess? same old, except for all that suckie band drama, leaving lisa and I as the co-presidents. but that doesnt mean a lot at this time of the year. festival was cool, I had a solo and was kinda freaked out but it turned out fine. potluck is going to be really emotional, I can already tell. band's been a huuuuge part of my high school life, thats for sure. BASIC...still goin relatively strong with about 25 people every week, its gotten really lax though, blah. I still like it though. david and his shinnanigans. or however you would spell that.
college update: for a while I was really struggling between deciding..UCLA or Pomona? but after lots of thinking and comparing...despite the fact that they are both incredibly awesome, I just feel like I'm so much more of a Pomona girl. especially after visiting the campus on admissions day a few weeks ago..the classes were small, interactive...the dorms were spacious, the campus was beautiful, the food was awesome. yup, so Pomona! the thing I mentioned earlier about an OA trip (Orientation Adventure) is something that Pomona offers to all the incoming freshman (for free!)...where you can choose to like go to the mountains, or backpacking, or to catalina, or kayaking, or on a so-cal "experience" trip..haha..all kinds of things..where you get to meet like 10-15 other freshman, before classes even start. im looking forward to that a lot. though im terrified about college, im really anxious about it in a way. kinda feels like its time for the next stage in life already...need something. but yeah, scary nonetheless. I hope I meet some really awesome people. at least I have natt there (at harvey mudd) already! :D
APs: today I had my AP spanish test, which was more entertaining than anything else..it WAS long but it didnt seem like a big deal, I'm like 99% sure I passed it. I hope I got a 4, that would be really cool. haha. AP english lit on thursday, just wanna get that one over with...aiming for a 4 there too. and art history is next wednesday, which, oh geez, is going to require a LOT of studying this next week. I hope I do well....I'm pretty sure I'll pass, but I really hope with more than a 3! I'm officially declaring this a lame paragraph, by the way. moving on.
prom: so yeah, the "big night" was this past saturday. I had always planned to go, and for the longest thought that I'd go with rick (made sense) but after jake couldnt go, and lisa and natt both didnt have a date, it was like, we should just do something else. but... once rick was out of the picture (ah..ill get to that too), I kind of randomly decided I would rather go and not regret it, rather than sit home alone doing I dont know. pitying myself, haha. so, I talked to natt about it, she was down, so we both decided to go "alone together," which turned out pretty cool. I loved both of our dresses, and buying them together and everything was fun (yay for fish tacos!!! my recent food obsession :p). but prom well, was kind of a dud, I mean it wasnt too bad really, its cool to dress up and feel pretty for a while and take a million pictures and see everyone else, but it just didnt feel like prom. didnt dance too much..and everyone kept asking me where rick was. =\ so overall, could have been better, but could have been worse. I'm glad I went, at least. but yeah, whoosh, there went prom.
as the world of connie turns: well, he and I decided to break off the girlfriend/boyfriend thing about two weeks ago..with the intent of staying friends, and being there for each other. seemed to be a break up on good terms, even though I cried constantly for days, I had hope that things would be okay, soon. honestly, now I'm not so sure. we have not spoken a word to each other since, have no made eye contact...by his choice, he needs his space I guess..which has been really hard and frustrating but its come to the point where I'm kind of accepting the fact. I mean, what can I do? he wont come online or answer my emails, wont respond to my notes. I wish so much that I could be a friend to him right now, but unless he lets me back in, I really cant push anything. I just want him to be happy. so I guess I'll just have to wait, and continue to pray for him, and hopefully get the chance to remind him that I'm still here for him. I miss him a lot, but I'm getting by. I CAN live without him but..why would I want to? :( I don't. and as long as I can wait, as long as theres a chance that I can be a friend to him, I will be. so, here's to hoping.
haha, and im tired of writing now so heres to ending this entry. I'll try to get back into the swing of live journaling things. but a little encouragement (*coughCOMMENTScough*) wouldnt hurt at all ;)
take care all, hope you're not melting.