silence is less than golden

[starrysilence]

right now, i'm not even sure i have a reason to wake up in the fucking morning. on the way home, i seriously contemplated wrapping myself around a tree several times. fuck this.

only ray charles knows what's up, and how disgustingly, abhorrently alone i am right now, with no end in sight:

It brings a tear,
Into my eyes,
When I begin,
To realize,
I've cried so much,
Since you've been gone,
I guess I'm drowning in my own tears,
I sit and cry,
Just like a child
My pouring tears
Are runnin' wild
If you don't think
You'll be home soon
I guess I'll drown in my own tears
I know it's true
Into each life
Some rain, rain must pour
I'm so blue
Here without you
It keeps raining
More and more
Why don't you
Come on home
Oh yes so I won't
Be all alone
If you don't think
You'll be home soon
I guess I'll
(drown in my own tears)
Ooh, don't let me
(drown in my own tears)
When I'm in trouble, baby
(drown in my own tears)
Oh, yeah, baby don't let me
(drown in my own tears)
I guess I'll drown in my own tears
Oh, mmmmm.

thanks, so very much. really. all i know is that i want so much, and no one seems to want me. and i can't quite figure out why.