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just when i got myself out of the ditch, he's telling me he's still stuck in dumps. well i mean, i never thought i'd be outta it but i am, so i dont really understand why he can't or why he hasn't. screw it!
we tried to talk it out, somehow.. i don't know if it actually was a gd thing to do, or if would make matters worse, but we did try to thrash things out. i mean there gotta be sth more to it than just "i'm busy with my work" and shite like this. if i knew things are gonna be the way they are now, i wouldn't have gone, i would have stayed at home, gotten a gd nite's sleep, save myself from the headache, and enjoy a casual friendship with him now. but no, i dun see this happening in the near future.
i'm already cool abt it, i don't believe that it actually affects him you know, i thought i was the only one bugged by it. i'm so wrong. and much as i really want to dismiss the whole thing as me being overly-sensitve, im not allowed to, things are just getting so awkward, difficult and different. Z was so right, if a friendship can't even withstand sth as small as this, then it's no point. I cant agree more, but then if i allow this small thing to get in between us, i'll be so pissed with myself.
having a bit of flu and my throat hurts so much, as if sth's piercing it. the lib's way too cold i think. i was shivering while messaging him, and i wonder if it was the cold or the fear in me. i shall have to stay away for awhile i suppose..
enjoy a great deal reading hefen's mail... man i wish i could be there too and gawk at the cuties..girls..guys..whatever! everything or everyone seems so pretty there.. Ha! glad she's having a gd time.. shall try and call her when i get my pay.. ha..
today's suppose to be a gd day..not going to let anything spoil it..not even my leaking nose.
we tried to talk it out, somehow.. i don't know if it actually was a gd thing to do, or if would make matters worse, but we did try to thrash things out. i mean there gotta be sth more to it than just "i'm busy with my work" and shite like this. if i knew things are gonna be the way they are now, i wouldn't have gone, i would have stayed at home, gotten a gd nite's sleep, save myself from the headache, and enjoy a casual friendship with him now. but no, i dun see this happening in the near future.
i'm already cool abt it, i don't believe that it actually affects him you know, i thought i was the only one bugged by it. i'm so wrong. and much as i really want to dismiss the whole thing as me being overly-sensitve, im not allowed to, things are just getting so awkward, difficult and different. Z was so right, if a friendship can't even withstand sth as small as this, then it's no point. I cant agree more, but then if i allow this small thing to get in between us, i'll be so pissed with myself.
having a bit of flu and my throat hurts so much, as if sth's piercing it. the lib's way too cold i think. i was shivering while messaging him, and i wonder if it was the cold or the fear in me. i shall have to stay away for awhile i suppose..
enjoy a great deal reading hefen's mail... man i wish i could be there too and gawk at the cuties..girls..guys..whatever! everything or everyone seems so pretty there.. Ha! glad she's having a gd time.. shall try and call her when i get my pay.. ha..
today's suppose to be a gd day..not going to let anything spoil it..not even my leaking nose.